Tag Archives: Spirituality

Monday ~ Moments of Joy

The most wasted of all days is one without joy and laughter.

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Jack Collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

be mindful and joyful

Get rid of the toxic people from your life

reblogged psychology and lifestyle post

I saw this blog post and it was so interesting and appropriate that I thought I would share it with you.

via Get rid of the toxic people from your life

In the past I have been a toxic person, from time to time.  That was not my conscious choice, it was the result of all the shit my principal carers put into my head when I was a young child.  I have now left those toxic behaviours behind me.

I know some toxic people, and I now know that their toxic behaviours are not their fault – their being toxic is the direct result of all the shit their principal carers put into their heads while they were young and vulnerable children.

However, if those toxic people do not consciously choose to change their toxicity for the better, then I will just leave them behind me.

Jack Collier

jackcollier7 @talktalk.net

I find women who go into bars alone quite toxic

Moonlight Cherishes

The moon looks down upon us all with her kindly lovelight

Artemis, Cerridwen, Diana, Isis, Luna, Seline,

the brightest full moon should be enough

She keeps me safe in her celestial love

soft and white as some heavenly dove

yet unimaginably distant so far above

ordinary man with pain undreamed of

be comforted because you are loved

Jack Collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

the brightest moonrise

The Subconscious Mind

What we think and believe, we become.

Here in New Mexico, yesterday I learned some powerful stuff, part of which was an exploration of how the brain works, specifically how the subconscious mind works.  Starting with the hard science of up-to-the-minute biochemistry and the structure of the brain, and going right down to the way our subconscious mind controls our actions, I was shown some advanced tools to help me in my day to day life.

It seems that the influence of our subconscious mind (95%), far outweighs the control our conscious mind has over our actions  (5%).  Think about it, our subconscious mind runs walking, talking, driving, deciding how we get to where we are going, what we think about people, and all the other daily actions we take for granted.  Our conscious mind does the creative stuff.

The snag is that a lot of what is in our subconscious got there before we were old enough to decide what was good, bad, or terrible – much of our unconsciousness was filled up with feelings, opinions, beliefs….. before we were 7 years old.  A lot of what is in my subconscious are things I would really prefer not to be there – for example fear of abandonment.

I would really like to change some of the things in my subconscious, but that is a very long and difficult task – like learning to drive, truly changing my belief systems will take a lot of time and effort.  If you play a sport, just think how long it took you to get good at it, that’s how long it takes an adult like me to implant something complex into my subconscious mind.

And you can’t just think it, you have to believe in it and do it – practice how you want your subconscious mind to be, don’t just think about it do it and believe in it.

Belief is more powerful than reality, but no matter how much you believe you can fly, you can’t.

Jack Collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

New Mexico Retreat

Chaos breeds life energies – Order brings habit

from my hotel room’s patio

Day one of the From Chaos to Coherence retreat was gratifyingly far more intense and content-rich than even my best expectations.  Admittedly, with two speakers operating consecutively, there wasn’t quite the strongest thread running through the dozens of topics explored – and I wonder how many of the delegates managed to keep up.  I’m not certain that all of the mature women there, (and the attendees were by far mostly women), are totally alongside the counterintuitive concepts of quantum mechanics.  Although I’m damn certain everyone there was fully congruent with spooky connections, and that reality is an illusion.

Reality is an illusion, albeit a very persistent one.  –  Einstein

For me, the most powerful message imparted can be summed up in the phrase: The interconnectedness of all things.

Ergo, if you change one thing in your life, the ripple effect will mean that everything in your life will change in some way – eventually.  And that if you take a drug, prescription or otherwise, then every organ and cell in your body will be affected, not just the organs the drug is supposedly targeted towards.

Some say that without movement, change, and chaos there is only stagnation and death.  And, that the better we know ourselves the less we fear change.  All I know is that I feel self-empowered,  and self-confident today.

Jack Collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

The Enchanted Land

Destination – New Mexico

The cool thing about smaller aircraft transportation is that it’s never boring

Today I am flying from John Wayne airport in Orange County CA, to Albuquerque in New Mexico.  Then picking up a rental for the drive to the luxurious Hyatt Regency Tamaya Resort and Spa in Santa Ana Pueblo NM.

I think the aircraft is going to be a small ‘puddle jumper’…..  as long as I get an inside seat I don’t mind.

In New Mexico I shall be at a retreat with the interesting headline From Chaos to Coherence – The Power To Thrive In Life Extremes, and by the cringe do I go to EXTREMES!

Hopefully I’m going to experience something deeply spiritual.

The resort hotel looks interesting.

Jack Collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

Goddess’ Betrayal

in the curves of her form a hero found his wanton goddess

Aphrodite symbolises

a lover’s eternal choices

of feminine enchantments

exploiting sexual differences

intellectual harmony balances

emotions desired disharmonies

wants needs desires dreams lusts

pleasures’ ecstasies turned into dust

Jack Collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

Haunted Abandonment

enchanted lust is as a candle under a dark moon

night soon

hard as stone

dry as a bone

far as the moon

she left me alone

the enchantress crone

Jack Collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

dangerous women attract me

and yet

I suffer an abnormal fear of abandonment

Remember, Remember

Remember the 5th of November, Treason and Gunpowder Plot

Today England, London, remembers the 1605 Catholic Plot by Guy Fawkes and his cronies to blow up the Houses of Parliament while King James the First, the Lord’s, and Members of Parliament were all in there.  The plot failed and Guy Fawkes was sentenced to death by being hung, drawn, and quartered.  Luckily for Fawkes he either fell, or was pushed, from the scaffold before his sentence could be carried out.

England still celebrates Guy Fawkes death to this very day.  The English are obsessive when it comes to remembering things.

I Remember…..  I am blessed / cursed with a near ‘eidetic memory’ – I hardly ever forget anything, except names which I seem to forget on purpose  This says a lot about my psyche and the Borderline Personality Disorder that goes along with it.

On the upside, this makes me very effective, efficient, organised…..  The penalties are that I remember every hurt, betrayal, and negative emotion as though these bad things were happening right now.  I become angry, jealous, paranoid, and almost suicidal over things that happened days, weeks, years ago.  This leads me into doing really stupidly bad things just to assuage the hurt.

Nobody can be happy living the way I was living.  It’s hard enough just to go on existing if you are living the way I was.

I tried to teach myself to forget.  That did not work.

Instead I taught myself how to accept and understand.  Accept that shit happens, and understand that past trauma cannot actually hurt me in the here and now.

How did I teach myself to let go of the past?  Through a lot of hard work, patience, and self-love.  I took care of my health and fitness in body, mind, and spirit.  And finally I learned to be open, honest, and forgiving of myself and others.

I will write more of my journey from the hellish rock-bottom I managed to reach, to the sunlit  meadow by the sea that I live in today.

Some say that we should never forgive and never forget.  And that revenge is a dish best served cold.  All I know is that nobody likes an obnoxious, misanthropic, angry jerk.

Jack Collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

 

Mr. Hyde is a dangerous place to be

Scenes on Sunday – California

I’m just a staid English guy being cool in Orange County

Today I am in sunny Orange County, where it’s still a balmy 80 degrees.  I like California, it might just be the nicest crazy place I know.

Jack Collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

Wednesday I fly out to New Mexico

at least I’ll be staying at a cool hotel

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