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Having No Libido

let nature decide on your sex-drive
not doctors and drugs

she should make my temperature rise

In the past when I heard of people who stopped taking their medication for schizophrenia, bi-polar disorder, depression, or some other mental issue….. because the drugs made them feel like they; ‘weren’t  themselves anymore’ ~ well I used to think they were being stupid.

For the past few days I’ve been taking a drug called Amlodipine to help lower what was my catastrophically high blood pressure, and it worked dramatically quickly ~ which is good.  There have been some immediate side-effects ~ which is not so good.  I’ve been drowsy, a bit confused and clumsy, my memory is crap. and I’ve got a constant headache.  There’s another side effect; no interest whatsoever in sex, total lack of sex-drive, zero libido, and no chance at all of having an erection.  I checked, one of the side effects of Amlodipine is to dramatically reduce the production of the male sex-hormone testosterone.

It feels like a very important part of my personality has been removed ~ I don’t feel like myself anymore.  I’m not me.  And, not only do I feel weird, I don’t like it one little bit.

You might wonder how I know my sex-drive and lustful desires have disappeared, given that I’ve been in lockdown for months, and not had a date in all that time.  The strange thing is I knew, and I know that my masculinity has disappeared along with the testosterone which used to flood my body.  I’m not interested in women in any sexual way whatsoever, and strong sexual feelings have been with me since adolescence.  Some other aspects of maleness have also gone; like I’ve lost my sense of direction ~ I don’t automatically know where North is anymore.  Spacial awareness is out of the window, single-mindedness and black and white thinking has gone, and I’m finding it difficult to focus on one task at a time.  I’m depressed, tired all the time, and irritable.  Even my voice is changing.

Who knew that testosterone does much more to the male body than creating and increasing sexual desire and performance?  (I’ve even checked this out by watching some internet porn, and nothing, zip, nada.)

Some women say that men are merely life-support systems for their penis.  And that the way to a man’s heart isn’t food, it’s casual sex.  All I know is that it’s horrible when a man’s masculinity vanishes.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

 

a great body, fabulous ass, fantastic pose

what effect is that having?

‘nice picture…..’

 

Seascapes and Serenity Lost is available on Amazon

Tunes on Tuesday ~ Doing It All For My Baby

love is the genesis of genius

OK, so I have a friend.  Even a reclusive writer, deep in solitary lockdown, is allowed to have a friend.  Especially if she’s very special, attractive, and sexy.  All writers need a muse, and maybe poets feel the need for a muse more than most.  Anyway, this Huey Lewis And The News tune is for her.  She likes ghosts, ghouls, and graveyards.

I like the video, even if it is too long.

Please try to keep moving your feet to the beat.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

 

it’s not every woman who has had a poetry anthology written for them

Songs on Saturday ~ Writing’s On The Wall

the first draft is just me telling myself the story

Except the writing isn’t on the wall, or anywhere else for that matter.  Now the poetry anthology Seascapes and Serenity Lost is finished and published on Amazon, I feel the need for a new project, a new book, perhaps a collection of short stories.  Maybe I have a title Dreams of Desire, but no idea what the content is going to be.  Or how about a Bond spoof ~ maybe not.

From the James Bond movie Spectre.

You can do the pose if you wish.

Different music for me.

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jack collier      ~     jackcollier7@talktalk.net

Seascapes and Serenity Lost

poetry is nearer to reality than is the unadorned truth

Both the kindle and print versions of my poetry anthology Seascapes and Serenity Lost are now available on Amazon.  Trust me, the 8 x 10 paperback edition will look fabulous on your coffee table.

I must pay tribute to Jan Olandese who did all the hard work of editing and formatting both editions.

The one review I think I’ve received thus far is pretty damn positive.

Some of the stuff I’ve written is more than brutally truthful.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

the original photograph that appears on the book’s cover

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