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Lust for Life

Change your life today, act now without delay.

It seems to me that most people spend most of their time just piddlefucking around without having a clear idea of what it is they want to achieve, and without having any real plan to get wherever it is that they want to go in Life.  I’m pretty certain this is not because they don’t have wants, needs, dreams and desires, but perhaps it’s because their wants, needs, dreams, and desires are not well thought out in their own mind.

Consciously we may have an idea of what we want out of Life, but unless our conscious plans are totally backed by subconscious conviction we may as well just be whistling in the wind.

Recently I ‘decided’ that I am a really cool and charismatic guy, living a really great life ~ and so what?

Well, to begin with it means developing and maintaining some habits and rituals that support the conviction that I’m a cool guy living a great life, such as always looking sharp with bright eyes, clear skin, and a good haircut that suits my slightly preppy English style.  Getting to bed at a decent time every night, sleeping well, eating well, taking the right vitamin supplements, getting plenty of fresh air and exercise, and avoiding unnecessary stress.  Every day I make certain that I read something challenging and inspirational, rest and meditate, and just take some time out for myself.

I have a ritual that each day I try to write something interesting, insightful, and perhaps controversial on this blog.  And, every day I take the time to stay in contact with some people that I care for, even if it’s just by email.  (I don’t use Facebook, twitter, or texts.)

And every second of every day, the conviction I have planted in my subconscious that; ‘Hey, I’m a cool and charismatic guy, living a really great life…..’ monitors my conscious thought, feelings, and actions, and every so often will let me know that I’m being a jerk.

Nobody is perfect, but now I fucking damn well know when I’m being a jerk, and I suddenly have a choice ~ go on being a jerk, or instead act like the cool and charismatic guy I know I am.  If I have to, I follow that old mantra;’fake it to make it’, and my natural exuberance spills out all over the place.

Tomorrow I’m taking another sunshine vacation, a week in the Spanish Canary Islands, and that’s because my idea of being a cool guy doesn’t involve hibernating in my garret through the English winter.  Instead I’m up for some fresh air and exercise in sub-tropical sunshine.

Some say that we should avoid strong emotions and deep feelings.  And, that it’s a sin to have our own personal desires and dreams.  All I know is that I have a real lust for life.

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jack collier

jackcollier@talktalk.net

 

show up on time for life

Haunted Abandonment

enchanted lust is as a candle under a dark moon

night soon

hard as stone

dry as a bone

far as the moon

she left me alone

the enchantress crone

Jack Collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

dangerous women attract me

and yet

I suffer an abnormal fear of abandonment

Wild Romance

If you want me, just whistle.  You know how to whistle don’t you…..

You are the one

unique and singular

more beautiful to me than

a rainbow in its serried colours

wild, free, and hotter than the sun

romancing you and my life just began

strange, crazy, weird, erotic, feral, and fun

come and ride the river, come ride the moon

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

 

lovely, lithe, lissom, languid, lascivious, lust

What are you longing for most in life?

Sexual desire is impervious to sense and reason.

What am I longing for most in life?  That’s a hard question  It’s one of the questions in the Dreambook and Planner a friend sent to me.

That question made me think a lot, as it should have.  I don’t have an answer as yet.

The thing is I have some easy answers, guy type answers, and of course more and better sex is an easy answer for a guy.

It’s disturbing for me that friendship and love seem more important to me right now than monochromatic lust.  Lust and sex are transient, love and friendship are permanent things.  As I guy I think I should be more into casual sex.

But I do love black and white pictures of attractive women.  Why monochromatic?  It is so much sexier.

 

And why do women who smoke turn me on?  That’s weird too.

 

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jack collier

jackcollier7 @talktalk.net

 

 

 

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Emotions

We cannot control our emotions.

Various psychologists, behavioural scientists, and sundry people in white coats, disagree a little on just how many human emotions there are.  They also tend to disagree on exactly what these feelings do to us.

assHowever, trolling through their divergent opinions, and adding a little basic common sense, we can come up with a more or less definitive list of the main human emotions.  These are; Anger, Fear, Happiness, Sadness, and Love.  Personally I’d add another, I think Lust is a very powerful raw emotion.  Or maybe Lust only affects men?

We can call these raw emotions by other, more polite, names.  Lust is transformed into desire, and many of us call the feeling of desire Love.  How many men have said; ‘I love you’, when what they truthfully meant was; ‘I desire you, I want you’?  I know I have fallen into that despicable sexual trap in the past.

For most of us, by far the strongest emotion is .  It’s what keeps people in dysfunctional relationships, lousy jobs, and mind numbing routines.  We are afraid of change, we fear abandonment, we fear loss of status, most of all we fear death.

Those of us who have, or have had, a psychological / mental illness have an intimate relationship with fear.  The emotionally disturbed are often a maelstrom of Fear and Anger.

For aeons the heart was thought to be the seat of emotions, especially Love.  Now, most respectable scientists profess that the brain is where emotions live.  Although, some left field professors say that the gut is where emotions begin.  Me, I’m neither respectable nor a scientist, and the last time I wore a white coat was at a costume party.  I don’t know where our emotions live, and I don’t know exactly how they work.

However, I do know where your emotions come from.

Our emotions and instincts are hard-wired into our body, mind, and spirit.  They originate as far back in time as when the first thing crawled out of the primeval slime.  Emotions and instincts are what drove the survival behaviours of things that could never be described as intelligent life.  What do you think drove the raw savagery of Tyrannosaurus Rex?  What do you think makes sharks such a successful life-form?

Instincts and raw animal emotions bypass the intellect.  Emotions have nothing to do with intelligence and common sense.  Emotions are powerful in exactly the same way that thought isn’t.  From the moment life began emotions controlled the behaviour of all life forms, and emotions still control human behaviour today.

Intellectually, a man can know that some particular woman is bad for him, yet will he willingly give her up?  Probably not because his emotions completely override his common sense.  If she thinks about it, a woman may know that it’s stupid to stay with a man who mentally, emotionally, physically abuses her ~ yet how many women are trapped in abusive relationships because their emotions won’t let them leave him?

Most of us will do almost anything to assuage our emotions.  Some of us will go to any lengths to satisfy our raw emotions ~ up to and including the death of self and / or others.  Emotions are the most powerful driving forces in each of our lives.  Positive, or negative, or a mixture of both, we are each controlled by our feelings.  All that intelligence and intellect does is to overlay some civilisation on top of our innate savagery.

Me, Us, You, Them, can do something about these emotions that drive our every action.  We can’t stop the feelings, and we can’t control the feelings, but we can control what we do.

You may get so angry with your partner that you want to stab them in the eye with a sharp knife.  You may fear the outside world so much that you never want to leave your home.  You may think you love someone so much that you willingly sublimate your identity just to please them.  Yet our intelligence and intellect will eventually tell us that we need to escape into the broad sunlit uplands of rationality.

At that point you may seek counselling, psychiatry, medical help, inspirational speakers and writers, or self-help groups.  Trust me, none of that will do you any good at all.  These people will probably tell you to control your emotions, and that’s as impossible as turning back the tide.

The only thing we can do is accept these emotions and at the same time unconditionally accept ourselves.  We must recognise that life is difficult, painful, and mostly beyond our control.  We must be prepared to make some brave choices.  Leaving the one you’re with may tear your heart in two, but that’s just a raw primeval emotion, the feelings will pass, and the sooner we make those brave choices the sooner our emotions will stop torturing us.

2ed3361ebc8c8984d950d64833cf022aYour emotions are utterly beyond your control.  Your emotions also lie to you.  Your emotions may make you feel bad or good, but those are just feelings, they have nothing to do with reality.  The reality is that your emotions lie to you, that’s their job, they developed to keep a cave-man alive.  In this day and age we need the sense to accept our emotions for what they are, a very broad brush indeed.

See beyond your emotions.  See the world in it’s true colours.  Enjoy your emotions when they are good, but don’t get carried away.  Live with your emotions when they are bad, but accept bad emotions as the storm flags they really are.  And, at this time of year, let yourself feel the innocent joy and of love of Christmas.

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WAF Landscape Christmas Cards.qxdthese thoughts are mine and mine alone

jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

gold coast sunset

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California coast sunset in pain meanders

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nirvana poltergeist soubrette in vain leaves

a wicked Pandora the utmost coquette in disdain lures

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she is a madonna boasting fishnet in lust with black flowers

offshore a lost vignette, just constrained emotions

the aura a ghost so forget your lost memories

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words and pictures by jack collier      jackcollier7@talktalk.net

Dreams

Even grown men cry sometimes.  Even grown men are blue when their dreams cannot ever come true.

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There are many species of dreams.  Pleasant dreams, disturbing dreams, day dreams, nightmares…

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Sometimes we use the word dream when what we really mean is desire, covet, lust, passion, want, crave…

Perhaps only when we accept that some dreams are just fantasies that we can find true happiness.

Paradise is a never-never land, but there is joy to be found in the real world ~ if we accept the freedom of acceptance of what is rather than wishing for the impossible.  From acceptance it is just a short step to sanity and serenity.

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I can accept that all the dreams I dream with you may never come true.

words and pictures by jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

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