Tag Archives: Illness

Tunes on Tuesday ~ Nursie

doctors may think they’re important,
but it’s the nurses that get you well

This has got to be the shortest Jethro Tull track ever.

The nurses in this hospital have been very good to me, especially when I couldn’t get out of bed at all.

~

Jack Collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

none of my nurses look like this

 

Survival from Illness

hospital is brief moments of fear interspersing long periods of boredom and pain

It’s my fourth day in hospital with kidney problems.

I see an oncologist tomorrow, I think it’s just routine.  It’s also very scary

But, if I get though all this with my health intact, it will be a supreme and liberating experience for me; annulling routine expectations, providing new contexts and challenges, widening my horizons and opportunities.  I believe that this scary episode is testing my abilities, nourishing my honesty, individuality, stoicism, irony, humour, fortitude, humility, and the complexity of my character.  I hope I come out of this a much better person.

Above all this is a reminder of the shortness of our lives, and that I should make the most of what is left of mine.

Instead of being scared, stressed, and depressed, I should try to look on the bright side of things with humour and humility.

~

Jack Collier

jjackcollier7@talktalk.net

This picture helps me feel calm and peaceful

In Hospital

people tend to die in hospitals

Unfortunately, after all the medical tests I had the other day I’m now in hospital with a fairly serious problem in one of my kidneys.  I wondered what the back pain I’ve been suffering was all about.

I’m on a drip and lots of fluids.  I feel pretty bad, and likely to be in hospital for a few days.

I will not be in touch very much while I’m in here.

I could use some good friends right now.

~

Jack Collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

this picture makes me feel happier

Stressed and Distressed

I feel as bad today as I have on any day of my life.

About 3 years ago I had double pneumonia, pleuresy, and 5 broken ribs.

A few years before that my business went bust because my partner was stealing all the capital I put into it.

Before that I quit / lost my highly paid job in banking, and at about the  same time I got divorced.

A sorry tale, but today I feel as bad or worse as a I have ever felt in my life.

I suffer from life-threatening mental illness called Borderline Personality Disorder, and the myriad symptoms are making me feel stressed, distressed, and depressed.  Add that to the flu I had this week and my life is hardly worth living.

As I said, today, in fact all of this week, I feel the worst I have ever felt in my life.

~

Jack Collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

This is how I feel today.

The Pointlessness of Medicinal Marijuana

Banning cannabis just makes it even more desirable.

Some say that using cannabis has medicinal benefits.  And that using a little weed never hurt anyone.  All I know is that regularly using cannabis will put you on a slippery slope to misery, degradation, and death.

The US Food and Drug Administration, (FDA), has not approved marijuana for medicinal use, although a large number of doctors and their patients swear by its effectiveness and positive health benefits.  Which is utterly delusional because a placebo is just about as effective as cannabis when it comes to relieving the worst symptoms of most illnesses.   However, people still take medicinal marijuana to obtain relief from the more unpleasant symptoms of their illness ~ and not just to get high.  However, medicinal marijuana will still give you a rush and get you high.

Cannabis in my view is being deliberately oversold as a medication, deliberately so by people whose primary objective is drug legalisation.  Nations should be cautious and should not be seduced by extravagant and unscientific claims by noisy lobbyists.  ~  David Raynes

This inevitable drug rush is because marijuana’s healing properties come from its high cannabidoil (CBD) content and critical levels of medical terpenes, flavonoids, and tetrahydrocannabinol (THC).  CBD, won’t get you high, but THC certainly will.  Actually, there are more than 100 cannabinoids in marijuana ~ doctors and scientists don’t know what effect some of these potent chemicals have on the human brain and body.

Nevertheless, medicinal marijuana does show some slightly positive effects in treating certain psychological problems, and the pain from illness such as degenerative neurological disorders.  Allegedly, medicinal marijuana helps ease pain, nausea and loss of appetite in people with HIV and cancer, and it just might help people with epilepsy or multiple sclerosis.  It’s the CBD and THC that has these beneficial effects.

What THC does is make your brain release dopamine ~ the pleasure chemical, and to be honest, that’s why everyone uses pot, even the people who take it for ‘medicinal’ reasons.  You will get high if you take cannabis for any reason ~ you will feel more relaxed, happier, and probably sleepy.  You may also have hallucinations, delusions, short term memory loss, paranoia ~ and if you have pneumonia or bronchitis those illnesses will suddenly get a lot worse.

Cannabis does more harm than good, even when taken for medical reasons.  New medical guidelines have been issued in Canada, (where cannabis is legal), warning that the negative effects of the weed far outweigh the minor benefits it has for most illnesses.  The Canadian Family Physician journal states that in the few conditions where cannabis is helpful the effects are only marginally better than a placebo.

This Canadian guidance states that there is little evidence that cannabis could help many patients at all, and that the downsides far exceed the potential benefits.

Marijuana very strong stuff, especially the more potent types grown now, and its effects last a very long time.  You will still be suffering from the after-effects of using pot four weeks later.  Pot is addictive, and it’s also a gateway drug to worse things such as cocaine and heroin.

Marijuana is damaging and dangerous.  If you use marijuana a lot you will probably get one or more serious mental illnesses like schizophrenia, anxiety and depression, memory problems, have difficulty with coordination, distortions in your sense of time and space, and have suicidal thoughts.  Your work, social life, and interpersonal relationships will suffer.  You will do risky and stupid things.  To top it off, marijuana damages unborn babies too.

The real reason anyone uses cannabis is to experience the instant gratification of a THC / Dopamine rush.  Anyone who craves instant gratification is immature and nowhere near being a balanced, grown up, grounded, and together person.  They care little about the future, themselves, or anyone else.  They have no real life outside of feeding their own wants, needs, and desires.  They are unlikely to ever get well until they first learn to cure their own need for instant pleasures.  This applies to anyone who demonstrates little self-control.

If you really want to turn into a Mr. Hyde, then smoke pot.

~

jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

you’re not just a number

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When men have a cold it’s like the biggest medical disaster ever inflicted on the human race.  Well, today I have a cold, and I’m feeling thoroughly miserable.  Autumn’s shadowy fingers are crowding around the garret, the sky is grey, and so is the sea.  All I want to do is sleep.  I don’t feel quite human, more like a number standing in line waiting for I don’t know quite what.

The hot California desert calls, and so does the open road, and neither of them are going to see me today.  Anyhow, there’s no way I’m alert enough to drive a Seven until this cold had gone.  When I’m well, do I drive down through France our head West?

Chris Rea ~ Auberge

This music video is as weird as I feel right now.  I may have a fever.  I have a fever, it’s 101.  Man-flu strikes again.

Please listen responsibly.

When driven with real bravery, a Lotus / Caterham 7 is the fastest point-to-point car you can get on English country roads.

~

Sarajackcollier7@talktalk.net

liebster-12

 

Craving Alcohol’s Oblivion

P1010406A sad lonely man, who used to drink a bit.  No company in his apartment, not unless the TV and bottle of booze count as friends.  No food, no sleep, no fresh air, no exercise.  Emptiness, not feeling, not thinking, not even living.  Slow suicide, painful degradation, deserved opprobrium.  Dionysus or Bacchus ~ drunks by any other name can still stink of stale booze.  That’s better than the smell of vomit, regurgitated whisky and bile, Chanel it’s not.  All it takes is a perceived slight, another wrong word, another wrong turn, another disastrous depression.

I’ve been there, but not this time.

~

P1010649jackcollier7@talktalk.net

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