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Sick Again

an illness that comes and goes is bad

I have been feeling very poorly again, whatever I’ve got comes and goes, making me feel exhausted.  Can’t sleep, can’t eat, can’t stop coughing.

I just wish it would go away and leave me alone.  I feel as though I am letting everyone down.

Hopefully I will be better soon.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

just a nice picture to cheer me up.

Getting Better Now

let your hopes, not your hurts shape your future

one day I will see sights like this again

It’s not the cough that kills you ~ it just feels like it might.

I still have the cough / difficulty breathing , the headache, and the temperature / sweating, but I am so much better than I was a few days ago.  At the beginning of the week I only wanted to be asleep, and my sleep patterns were very disrupted.  It isn’t normal to be awake all night, then sleeping most of the day in front of the TV instead. I had no appetite, forgot to take my cold medication and vitamin pills, and could only drink Lucozade, (an energy drink for the sick), mixed 50-50 with water.

Until yesterday the idea of showering, shaving, washing my hair was just an impossibility.

But yesterday I got myself clean, cooked a hot meal, (tomato soup out of a can), and even ate most of it.  This morning I made coffee, and made some plans for today.

I don’t think I’ve left the garret since I got sick, which I think was on my birthday, March 23rd, so today I’m going out, as far as the store…..

Recovering from this virus needs to be the same as when I was recovering from pneumonia, pleurisy, and the 5 broken ribs that went along with that.;

  • Take it easy
  • Get plenty of rest and sleep
  • Do something to exercise my mind
  • Have a little exercise and get some fresh air
  • Eat properly, drink plenty of fluids, take my vitamins

The number of fatalities here in England is still going up, and our Prime Minister is in hospital with COVID-19.  It looks as though the current lockdown in England is going to continue for a while yet, maybe to the end of April.  So, I have plenty of time to recover properly before I’m tempted to do very much, or go anywhere.

Take it easy everyone, take care, don’t worry, try to be happy.

~

jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

stay in touch with family and friends

 

Coronavirus Personal Abyss

suffering from the coronavirus is akin to drowning in despair

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Like thousands of others who have been or are still very ill I have not had a proper test for the coronavirus, just a differential diagnosis that says I’ve had / have this manky thing.  Personally, I know that I am now recovering from COVID-19, and let me tell you it’s no fun.  The virus beat me down physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually, and it’s doing it’s worst to make my recovery as difficult as possible.

Waking up in the morning, very early, I feel pretty good and busy myself doing ‘normal life’ things ~ some fresh air and a walk is healthy for me.  But by mid-morning I start to feel weary, and by evening I’m back to feeling fucking dreadful again.  I go from having supernatural powers to running into a brick wall ~ very fast.  Recovery from the coronavirus seems to be a two steps forward and one or two steps backwards kind of thing.

Not only do I need to save the world by staying in and watching TV, I need to save myself by resting and mostly trying to watch TV, listen to music, or read something light.

Trust me, if you have been ill, then you are going to need a lot of rest, for quite a while.

Stay safe, and look after yourself.

~

jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

 

recovery also means rest

Tunes on Tuesday ~ Thank You

friends are the greatest treasure any man could wish for

It seems that I have contracted this horrible virus, and right now I feel like shit.  But, with the help and support of my friends I know I will be better soon.

This song is for them.

Thank you.

~

jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

true friends, now and forever

Happy Birthday To Me

I hope my special day brings some health and happiness to everyone

It’s my birthday today ~ both mentally and physically I feel terrible.

My symptoms are a bit like that of the dreaded corona virus, but my constant hacking cough isn’t dry and I don’t have diarrhea.  (I know, too much information.)  I think I’ve got influenza.

However, catching the virus is not on my agenda.

I HAVE JUST HAD A DIFFERENTIAL DIAGNOSIS.  I DO HAVE CORONAVIRUS.  OH CRAP!

Spiritually I feel good.  I have the support of some very good friends, although I will not be meeting any of them face-to-face for some time to come.

I have enough supplies to fort up for 6 weeks or so, but my fresh food will only last for a week.  After that it’s going to be a boring diet of canned and dried goods.

The message from the British government is stay at home.  Right now I think that’s a good idea for everyone.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

just a nice picture for my birthday

Coronavirus and Travel

it is not the length of life that matters, but the depth of it

There is nothing much in the news these days except the effects, implications, and horror stories concerning the coronavirus, or to give it it’s more sinister name COVID-19.  There is no doubt that there is an outbreak of illness involving a couple of varieties of this nasty little bugger.  According to some organisations, (WHO), the death rate from coronavirus is about 3.4%, (in comparison to a death rate of 0.1% from your average influenza).  But will I let that change my life ~ the hell I will.

In little while I should be heading off for an extended vacation ~ first stop California.  My journey to the warm sunshine should take me about 24 hours, elapsed time.  During my journey I will likely pass through 5 different airport terminals and sit in 3 different aircraft for a total of maybe 15 hours.  I will be in close proximity to hundreds, thousands, of people who could have come from just about anywhere in the world.  Was I of a nervous disposition then that’s the last kind of ordeal I’d put myself through during this present medical emergency.  But then, by that token I should never leave the garret at all ~ ever.

However, I will be taking some sensible precautions ~ in essence these will be no different whatsoever to the precautions I always take when travelling long-distances.

  1. Do not go to or through some disease-ridden hell-hole like Africa, or India, or China, or right now Northern Italy.
  2. Organise myself aisle seats on all flights, which usually costs extra in coach.  An aisle seat because if I’m sitting near someone I don’t like, for example someone coughing and sneezing, then I can always get up and find someplace else to spend most of a long flight.  It also gives me a chance to stretch my legs.
  3. Carry and use cleansing wipes.  It’s bloody terrible carrying stuff like a hand sanitiser through airport security, but I will buy one in the departure area.
  4. Don’t eat any food or drink any liquid that’s of dubious origins.
  5. Thoroughly wash my hands and face as often as possible.
  6. Never, ever touch anyone, and touch mucky looking surfaces as little as possible.
  7. Have comprehensive health cover included in my travel insurance, (£10 million + £10 million repatriation).
  8. Carry a list of emergency contact numbers.

You’ve seen news footage of people wearing masks ~ that’s bloody pointless.  A virus is so small it will just go right through anything you can breathe through.

Some say that it’s better to be safe than sorry.  And that they don’t want to get near to anyone who may have been exposed to the coronavirus.  All I know is that normal life has a 100% mortality rate and I intend to make the most of every moment I have left in mine.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

better to cash out going backwards off a cliff than forted-up in the garret

Tunes on Tuesday ~ Nursie

doctors may think they’re important,
but it’s the nurses that get you well

This has got to be the shortest Jethro Tull track ever.

The nurses in this hospital have been very good to me, especially when I couldn’t get out of bed at all.

~

Jack Collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

none of my nurses look like this

 

Survival from Illness

hospital is brief moments of fear interspersing long periods of boredom and pain

It’s my fourth day in hospital with kidney problems.

I see an oncologist tomorrow, I think it’s just routine.  It’s also very scary

But, if I get though all this with my health intact, it will be a supreme and liberating experience for me; annulling routine expectations, providing new contexts and challenges, widening my horizons and opportunities.  I believe that this scary episode is testing my abilities, nourishing my honesty, individuality, stoicism, irony, humour, fortitude, humility, and the complexity of my character.  I hope I come out of this a much better person.

Above all this is a reminder of the shortness of our lives, and that I should make the most of what is left of mine.

Instead of being scared, stressed, and depressed, I should try to look on the bright side of things with humour and humility.

~

Jack Collier

jjackcollier7@talktalk.net

This picture helps me feel calm and peaceful

In Hospital

people tend to die in hospitals

Unfortunately, after all the medical tests I had the other day I’m now in hospital with a fairly serious problem in one of my kidneys.  I wondered what the back pain I’ve been suffering was all about.

I’m on a drip and lots of fluids.  I feel pretty bad, and likely to be in hospital for a few days.

I will not be in touch very much while I’m in here.

I could use some good friends right now.

~

Jack Collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

this picture makes me feel happier

Stressed and Distressed

I feel as bad today as I have on any day of my life.

About 3 years ago I had double pneumonia, pleuresy, and 5 broken ribs.

A few years before that my business went bust because my partner was stealing all the capital I put into it.

Before that I quit / lost my highly paid job in banking, and at about the  same time I got divorced.

A sorry tale, but today I feel as bad or worse as a I have ever felt in my life.

I suffer from life-threatening mental illness called Borderline Personality Disorder, and the myriad symptoms are making me feel stressed, distressed, and depressed.  Add that to the flu I had this week and my life is hardly worth living.

As I said, today, in fact all of this week, I feel the worst I have ever felt in my life.

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Jack Collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

This is how I feel today.

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