doctors may think they’re important,
but it’s the nurses that get you well
This has got to be the shortest Jethro Tull track ever.
The nurses in this hospital have been very good to me, especially when I couldn’t get out of bed at all.
none of my nurses look like this
hospital is brief moments of fear interspersing long periods of boredom and pain
It’s my fourth day in hospital with kidney problems.
I see an oncologist tomorrow, I think it’s just routine. It’s also very scary
But, if I get though all this with my health intact, it will be a supreme and liberating experience for me; annulling routine expectations, providing new contexts and challenges, widening my horizons and opportunities. I believe that this scary episode is testing my abilities, nourishing my honesty, individuality, stoicism, irony, humour, fortitude, humility, and the complexity of my character. I hope I come out of this a much better person.
Above all this is a reminder of the shortness of our lives, and that I should make the most of what is left of mine.
Instead of being scared, stressed, and depressed, I should try to look on the bright side of things with humour and humility.
This picture helps me feel calm and peaceful
people tend to die in hospitals
Unfortunately, after all the medical tests I had the other day I’m now in hospital with a fairly serious problem in one of my kidneys. I wondered what the back pain I’ve been suffering was all about.
I’m on a drip and lots of fluids. I feel pretty bad, and likely to be in hospital for a few days.
I will not be in touch very much while I’m in here.
I could use some good friends right now.
this picture makes me feel happier
I feel as bad today as I have on any day of my life.
About 3 years ago I had double pneumonia, pleuresy, and 5 broken ribs.
A few years before that my business went bust because my partner was stealing all the capital I put into it.
Before that I quit / lost my highly paid job in banking, and at about the same time I got divorced.
A sorry tale, but today I feel as bad or worse as a I have ever felt in my life.
I suffer from life-threatening mental illness called Borderline Personality Disorder, and the myriad symptoms are making me feel stressed, distressed, and depressed. Add that to the flu I had this week and my life is hardly worth living.
As I said, today, in fact all of this week, I feel the worst I have ever felt in my life.
This is how I feel today.
When men have a cold it’s like the biggest medical disaster ever inflicted on the human race. Well, today I have a cold, and I’m feeling thoroughly miserable. Autumn’s shadowy fingers are crowding around the garret, the sky is grey, and so is the sea. All I want to do is sleep. I don’t feel quite human, more like a number standing in line waiting for I don’t know quite what.
The hot California desert calls, and so does the open road, and neither of them are going to see me today. Anyhow, there’s no way I’m alert enough to drive a Seven until this cold had gone. When I’m well, do I drive down through France our head West?
Chris Rea ~ Auberge
This music video is as weird as I feel right now. I may have a fever. I have a fever, it’s 101. Man-flu strikes again.
Please listen responsibly.
When driven with real bravery, a Lotus / Caterham 7 is the fastest point-to-point car you can get on English country roads.
A sad lonely man, who used to drink a bit. No company in his apartment, not unless the TV and bottle of booze count as friends. No food, no sleep, no fresh air, no exercise. Emptiness, not feeling, not thinking, not even living. Slow suicide, painful degradation, deserved opprobrium. Dionysus or Bacchus ~ drunks by any other name can still stink of stale booze. That’s better than the smell of vomit, regurgitated whisky and bile, Chanel it’s not. All it takes is a perceived slight, another wrong word, another wrong turn, another disastrous depression.
I’ve been there, but not this time.