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Personality Disorders and Trust

trusting her is my decision, proving me right is her choice

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Everybody lies ~ that’s one of life’s great truths.  So, why would I ever want or need to place my trust in another person?  I can put things more bluntly; I suffer from a serious mental health problem called Borderline Personality Disorder, (BPD), which makes it extremely difficult for me to ever trust anyone, particularly someone that I care for.  It’s common for someone with BPD to find it very difficult to trust, even though I may have a deep need for validation from other people.  That means I will lash out when I think someone has betrayed me, is betraying me, or might desert me.

Anyone with any personality disorder, especially with BPD, will have a history of very rocky relationships, especially romantic relationships.  Borderline Personality Disorder causes constant and extreme mood swings and changes in emotional states, from doting and affectionate one minute, to abusive and pushing your partner away within just a few hours.  If you either suffer from that horrible personality disorder, or if you are close to someone who does, you will find that trust comes very hard.

And, why should we trust at all?  Why should we ever give another the chance to betray and hurt us?  Why should we risk being lied to and deceived?

Things come apart so easily when they have only been held together with lies.  ~  Dorothy Allison.

All those with a personality disorder are compulsive liars and deceivers, and most of their relationships end in chaotic and traumatic breakups.  This is true until they begin to recover.  In recovering from a personality disorder the ‘former sufferer’ will become desperate to create and build trust in all of their relationships ~ and this takes a lot of time.

There are some things that I know I can do;

  • Keep to my word and follow through with my actions.
  • Learn how to communicate truthfully, openly, and effectively.
  • Stop speaking and acting impulsively.
  • If I’m wrong, or I’ve made a mistake, then admit it.
  • Stop lying and deceiving ~ always be honest with myself and everyone else.
  • Do what I believe is right ~ not what is easy or might get me what I want.
  • Stop taking people for granted.

Those things kind of look and sound easy ~ they’re not.  Earning trust and learning how to trust is one of the most difficult things someone recovering from a personality disorder or an addiction can ever do.  But, if life is going to be worth living it’s something I know I have to give of my very best.

Some say deceive me once then shame on you.  And, deceive me twice then shame on me.  All I know is that you can’t build a good life based on a tissue of lies.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

never trust a woman in a mask

Dishonest Disguise

A real woman will be honest no matter how painful the truth is

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everybody lies

you can see it in her eyes

learn the dark surprise

there’s a deep disguise

but if you’re really wise

you won’t ever despise

her, just accept the prize

the love her lie implies

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

 

men need to believe a woman’s lies

 

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