Inner tranquility ~ freedom from anger, anxiety, and fear.
There was something weird about my short stay in Turkey. Was it the place, or the people, or the blue, blue sky? Was it getting enough good sleep, good food, staying sober, staying calm? Or, was it the long, meaningful, and mindful conversations I enjoyed? Or was it some inner spirituality that was awoken in me? I suspect all of these things and more combined to wrought a significant change in my psyche.
For me this was a jumping-off point. I lost some things, I lost negativity, I lost the way I was used to seeing the world, I lost judgmentalism, I lost my mistrust of others, I lost my fear and anger, and I learned how to fly…..
Last night I lost the world, and gained the universe. ~ C. JoyBell C.
I had not been there long before I knew a radical freedom that allowed me to seek acceptance, humility, integrity, mindfulness, and understanding of myself, of those around me, and of those I care for. I was encouraged to take a new control and responsibility for my own life ~ I believe that most of us, (up to and including me), are not in control of our own lives. Rather most of us drift aimlessly through life, so that today is pretty much like yesterday, and tomorrow will be pretty much like today.
That isn’t really living, it’s just existing, and that’s no way to explore true happiness and well-being. To know true happiness and well-being we perhaps should strive to improve and enhance our own lives, the lives of those we care for, and society as a whole.
Within the real meaning of human happiness and enhanced existence, within our aims, significance, and overall purpose, we all have the freedom to choose what to do, to be who we want to be. Sadly so many of us never even try to grow into an enlightened being.
After a couple of days in the mindfulness of my Turkish vacation I began to seek to understand things, to understand the interconnectedness of all things, and the ways to find the significance of my own life among the chaos.
The real meaning of enlightenment is to gaze with undimmed eyes on all darkness. ~ Nikos Kazantzakis
I realised that each of us is what we take ourselves to be. But to live in an authentic, caring, and mindful way, we each have to take each situation as it comes and show our true nature through what we do, and not what we say. Talk is cheap.
I was always frightened to show my true nature. I was a shadow man, the man in the mirror, I was always conforming to what others expected of me, putting on masks that fitted the roles I was expected to play. I saw the world through a winter mirror, darkly.
After just one week in a small Turkish hotel, under blue, blue skies, among a group of friendly and supportive people, I was able to throw away the masks, stop playing a role, eschew the man in the mirror, and really take charge of my own life.
Knowing others is wisdom, knowing yourself is Enlightenment. ~ Lao Tzu
Today, back in the garret, I am self-analytical, self-aware, self-confident, and filled with real self-control, and self-discipline.
Now I need to act in a way that reflects my new self-awareness, and the awareness of my own complete freedom. This is what I am, this is what I choose to be, this is the real me, and I will never again dodge responsibility for being true to myself.
I do not pretend to understand how this enlightenment came about. Probably it was a unique set of serendipitous circumstances, a synchronicity that has energised me physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.
Some say that once in a lifetime your chance comes along, that once in a lifetime fate deals you the perfect winning hand. And, that we each have to be courageous enough to take that chance, to throw everything we have behind our one great opportunity in Life. All I know is that today I feel better than I have ever felt before in my entire existence.
My short stay in Turkey was the kindling of a flame.
each man is an island unto himself
Time Is An Illusion. ~ Albert Einstein
Time passes at different rates and in different ways depending upon who we are, where we are, what we are, why we are counting time, and how we measure time. There is no such thing as an absolute past. There are probably an infinite number of futures for us to choose from. The present isn’t just now, the present also encompasses the past and the future. My perception of time and my reality is different from yours. Most importantly, we are not trapped by time, we can choose to use and take advantage of time as we will.
Time is not constant and one minute is not the same length as another. ~ Jeanette Winterson
Subjectively we know that time passes at different rates depending upon circumstances. If you’re stuck in an airport departure lounge waiting for your much delayed flight, then time passes painfully slowly ~ the minutes seem like hours and the hours crawl by like a wounded fly. Conversely, if you’re getting ready for a really hot dinner date, then the hours fly by, and there’s just no way you’re going to be ready on time.
Scientifically, time also passes at different rates depending upon how fast you’re moving, and how much gravity there is where you are. In the world of quantum mechanics time may, or may not, exist at all.
We choose to examine a phenomenon which is impossible to explain in any classical way, and which has in it the heart of quantum mechanics. In reality it contains the only mystery. ~ Richard Feynman.
The present, your ‘now’, isn’t only the present. This instant of ‘now’ also includes the past and the future, and both the past and the future can and will change in a way that’s dependent upon now. Once you accept that time is not an immutable constant you have the ability to change your future, your present, and your past. Changing your own past is called retrocausality.
Everything, and I mean every moment of joy, happiness, sadness, trauma, learning, experiencing, dreaming and imagining, everything that has ever happened to you, and everything that you have ever done is present in the now. Mostly we just aren’t consciously aware that the past is with us in the here and now. But, without your past you wouldn’t be able to walk, talk, drive, hold down a job, or maintain a loving relationship. The downside of this is that all the bad things about us were created in the past. All the anger, attitudes, insecurities, jealousies, phobias, and mental illnesses are from the past. But, you do not have to be a prisoner of your past, you have the ability to change the past.
The future is also with us in the present. Everything you do is dictated by the future. You most likely will go to work on Monday, and that’s dictated by things that will happen much further in the future than Monday. If you don’t go to work, then somewhere in the future you may lose your job, and then your home, because you can’t pay the rent / mortgage / local taxes. If you knew for certain that the Second Coming of Christ was going to happen this Christmas, then most likely you wouldn’t go to work on Monday. The future changes and creates the present, and the present changes the future. The more brave choices you make in the present the greater number of possible futures you have to choose from.
We can choose from our possible futures, but most people are very bad at making brave choices. Almost everyone will do tomorrow what they did yesterday, with exactly the same people in exactly the same places. Those people have made the choice to make no choices at all, and the more they do that the fewer possible futures they have to choose from. If nothing changes then nothing changes.
Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. ~ Albert Einstein
We can choose to change our past. After all, the past is only what we remember and how we interpret those memories. If you had an abusive childhood, then in all likelihood it will have blighted your whole life, right up to the here and now. Trauma in your childhood could have left you with Alcoholism, Borderline Personality Disorder, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, or any of a number of other psychological problems.
You can change all that and have a good life now by reinterpreting the past ~ after all the past is only memories. I can’t tell you how to do that, you may need counselling or psychotherapy. However, I can tell you that I stopped the past from blighting my present by unconditionally accepting who I am, and acceptance created a whole raft of new futures for me to choose from. Today I am enjoying enlightenment and empowerment because I changed the past in my present. Today I have more futures to choose from because I changed the subjective past.
You can change your own past, your present, and your future. All you need to do is to have the willingness to change.
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