Character defects exist to remind you of how much you were wounded.
My past was darkness
anger, anxieties, arrogance
bigotry, blaming, boastfulness
controlling, cowardice, crudeness
dishonesty, destruction, deviousness
fear, guilt, hate, harshness, hopelessness
intolerance, judgementalism, lying, lustfulness
manipulating, negativity, perfectionism, recklessness
evil sarcasm, selfishness, thoughtlessness, unfaithfulness
unreliability, undisciplined thrill seeking, vulgarity, wastefulness
all my days were filled with misery, pain, suffering, doubt, difficulties
today I am empowered, self-aware, self-confident, accepting mindfulness
I have abandoned my character defects and found acceptance and happiness
the pain you felt yesterday
is the strength you feel today
You don’t pick your demons; your demons pick you.
when demons came
every night has its dawn
don’t listen to the sad song
it will only bring you more pain
and cut your mind like a dull knife
remember this your life and be true
nightmares and demons cannot hurt you
if you take care to guard your incarnate soul
I use a Panasonic Lumix
the pictures help my mood
Positive, Assertive, Calm, Determined, Energetic, Generous, Kind, Optimistic..
In the past it’s always been very easy for me to focus on the negative aspects of my personality. I have suffered from extreme insecurity, jealousy, pessimism, selfishness, and immaturity. I’ve been judgmental, aggressive, demanding, bossy, and egotistical. Do you know something? Being a complete jerk is hard work, no wonder I also got tired and petulant at times. But, that’s a Borderline Personality Disorder for you.
Instead of all that negative energy, why don’t I focus on developing my positive character traits? Positive character traits exude an energy which is attractive to others. I’ve been told that I can be charming, funny, kind, considerate, and assertive without being domineering. Some say I’m also intelligent and interesting, challenging but generous, attentive and romantic. And, that it’s obvious I’m an experienced, dominant, been there, done that, don’t mess with me kind of a guy. All I know is that I still have enough of a sense of fun to take pictures of my teddy bear.
The psychological people have told me that positive character traits can be developed and enhanced by making a conscious effort to change, but that it’s really only possible for a man to work on one thing at a time.
The curious paradox is that when I accept myself just as I am, then I can change. ~ Carl Rogers.
Given that sometimes I’m too smart for my own good, I’m going to work on something difficult ~ Congruence. This means being true to me, open, genuine, honest, acting with confident integrity…
This also demands that I have to study what being congruent really means and behave in that way.
The only person who is educated is one who has learned how to learn – and change. ~ Carl Rogers.
As I have asked in prayer; ‘Please teach me how to learn.’
Lent is a Christian Festival ~ sometimes I don’t feel filled with Christian charity, and I will remedy that. For Lent this year I am giving up some of my most cherished character defects.
Between February 10th and March 24th I will not inflict my dangerously negative feelings upon anyone.
Among the things I will not be doing during Lent are that I will not be;
(Please feel free to tell me of any other unpleasant defects of character you would like a less than perfect man to lose.)
Only an inherently evil man like Mr.Hyde, (or an unreconstructed alcoholic), would be pleased to give free rein to actions which stem from those negative character traits. If I feel any of these vile and malevolent emotions and impulses, I will work very hard at not letting them show.
Actually, I am not going to do anything about those nasty, abusive, and negative character defects.
Instead, I am going to be positive and affirmative, calm and peaceful, honest and honourable. I shall walk softly and speak kindly. I will strive to become the perfect English Gentleman.
Also, I shall stay off the booze.