Only I can change my life ~ no one can do it for me.
Life is about change. Without change, without variety, without some stress in Life, all will stultify and diminish. Without change there can be no growth, and without growth and development all things will wither away and die.
I will not meddle with that which I cannot mend. ~ Thomas Fuller
But, as the Serenity prayer tells us, there are some things that we cannot change, some things that have to be accepted, and the wise learn to know the difference. I can think of a myriad of people, places, and things I cannot change. In reality no one can change another person, unless that other absolutely wants to change. This is why it is mostly pointless trying to talk to most addicts in an effort to make them change their ways. This is why many relationships, and many marriages, end in failure and recriminations. This is why there are wars.
A while ago I resolved to stop trying to change others and instead decided to work on myself to become a better person. That is now my lifetime’s project, and it doesn’t always go smoothly. Sometimes it doesn’t work at all. Sometimes I make progress, and sometimes I go backwards a couple of steps or more ~ it’s like a man walking into a gale, sometimes he wins and sometimes the storm wins. In the last few days I think the wind won more than I did. In the last few days I went with the wind and my negative emotions, and that meant I really staggered in the wrong direction. In other words I totally fucked-up, again. For me, going with the flow is usually the wrong choice.
Life will do it’s best to deceive you. You may get knocked down, but you must always get up again. The mark of a really great boxer is not that he never gets knocked down. A really great boxer can get knocked down, but he will always get up again. And that’s up to and including Mohammed Ali in his all prime and pomp.
Our greatest weakness lies in giving up. The most certain way to succeed is always to try just one more time.’ ~ Thomas Edison
The English language is filled with wise sayings, allegories, parables, and proverbs. As you would expect a lot are by Churchill; ‘To improve is to change; to be perfect is to change often…’ Then from Scotland we have the allegory of Robert the Bruce and the spider, which gave us the saying; ‘If at first you don’t succeed, try, try, and try again…’ But we also have almost the converse of that saying…
Insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result. ~ Albert Einstein.
The Goddess knows I have been there often enough ~ every time I took a drink I expected it to be different from the last time, and it never was. But, somehow I usually got away with it.
Back in my illustrious career in banking I once went into a meeting on Madison Avenue with no ideas and nothing but blank pieces of paper in my briefcase. I had got good and drunk in the Plaza the night before, so I both looked and felt far from my very my best. But I stood up in front of the board of the world’s biggest advertising agency and tried just one more time. I told them not what they wanted to hear, but what I wanted to make happen. It worked. The thing is I didn’t give up, and I didn’t try to change anything except myself.
After that almost debacle I resolved to make a big change by giving up banking for good. It was the wrong change ~ I should have given up booze for good. Back then I didn’t have enough serenity within me to even think about being sober for life.
Right now, today, all I try to do is be the best Jack Collier I can be, sober. That is difficult enough for anyone. I realise that life is difficult and painful. I know that the causes of my problems and pain are my own cravings, lusts, and the blaming others for my faults. I now know that I can’t change others and I can’t change what happens to me, but I can change what I do, and how I react to people places, and events.
I know that the warrior’s road to freedom from continual distress, pain, and suffering is through self-discipline in body, mind, spirit… and that’s a hard road to walk in honour, honesty, and truth. I try to always walk that road, and often I fail. But, at least I try, and perhaps not one in ten men even do that.
The world and the sky is ours if we want it enough.
That’s a pretty open question.
Let me be more specific.
What’s wrong with women who want to turn their guy into someone else?
Every women I have ever met wants to ‘improve’ the man they’re in a relationship with. Most women will not just take a guy for himeslf. Most women want their guy to dink less beer and watch less sports television.
You would think that if woman wants their other half to be different, then they would have looked for a different man in the first place. It’s not as though women are short of choice when it comes to men. Almost any woman can get any man they want, given that the man in question is interested in sex and the woman is willing to oblige.
So, a woman starts dating a reclusive guy, who lives comfortably alone in his sparsely furnished garret. Before the poor fool knows what’s happening ‘She’ has invaded his space and started to change things. Curtains, rugs, and colour start to appear in his comfortably all-white garret, spoiling the simplicity of the bare floorboards. ‘She’ starts buying him clothes he would never have bought for himself. She changes his brand of aftershave / cologne. ‘She’ wants him to buy a sensible car instead of the insane sports car he’s very happy driving.
Perhaps ‘She’ suggests a change of job / career might be better for his happiness. ‘She’ says that he should spend less time at the sports bar with his pals, maybe drink a little less, eat more vegetables and less prime steak.
In short, ‘She’ wants to improve her man by changing him ~ ‘She’ wants him to put away boyish things and grow up. ‘She’ wants him to be successful.
Success took me to her bosom like a maternal boa constrictor. ~ Noel Coward
All this change and impovement results from the maternal instinct in women.
The bottom line is; Give a woman an acorn and the next thing you know you’re up to your rump in oak trees. Col. Thaddeus Gearhart