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Your Ultimate Truth

There is a warrior’s path to the end of suffering.

In my life I have been lost, often alone, and sometimes in pain.  I have been down and disappointed, I have been beaten by misfortune, I’ve been so tired and despairing I could not eat or sleep, I’ve been crushed by unrequited love, I wanted things that were always out of reach, and I was so lonely I cried bitter tears.  Then I found a guiding star to wish to, and that bright star led me to a good place of freedom from pain and suffering.  Now I can cross broad oceans, climb tall mountains, see the far horizons.

Now I can experience true friendship and real love.

Astronomy compels the soul to look upwards, and leads us from this world to another.  ~  Plato

You too can find your star to wish upon and to follow, if only you are prepared to search both the heavens and deep within yourself.

In the Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy a supercomputer reveals that the ultimate answer to Life, The Universe, and Everything is 42.

The answer to the Great Question… Of Life, the Universe, and Everything… Is… Forty-Two.  ~  Deep Thought

This was meant as a joke, 42 was just a random number picked out of thin air by Douglas Adams, the author of the Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy.  Allegedly.  However it turns out that the number forty-two has symbolism and special meanings in a whole raft of philosophies, religions, and magical convictions.  Forty-two is a highly symbolic number slipped into a work of fiction, seemingly by accident, or coincidence.

However, despite what some may say, there is an answer, a simple answer to Life.

If we are to believe numerology then 42 is an Angel Number, and the energies of this number bring us an inner-wisdom to help us pursue our Life Purpose.  To pursue your Life Purpose, then first you must realise that the true purpose of your life is to live and to grow ~ to grow physically, mentally, and spiritually, in health and happiness.  That may be a long, long way from where you find yourself right now.

In order to get to where you want to go, you first have to know two things;

  • Exactly where you are right now.
  • Exactly where it is you want to get to.

You don’t need to know the road in-between, that will become only too apparent on your journey to your ultimate truth.

If you are anything like I used to be, then where you are right now could be unhealthy, unsatisfying, and depressing.  There may be no real joy and happiness in your life.  You may see no way out, even though you have sought relief and escape through religion, inspirational books, motivational speakers, support groups, counsellors, psychologists, doctors, medication, booze, street drugs, gambling, casual sex…

None of those escape routes will work for long, and the consequences of some methods of escape from hard reality just make things much worse.  I know, before I found my own ultimate truth, my own warrior’s path, I tried just about every quick fix there is.

There are more false prophets than there are those inspired by an ultimate truth.

Taking the wrong road through self-destructive behaviour leads to one rock-bottom after another, and each new rock-bottom is worse than the one before.

There are no quick fixes in Life, and nobody can fix you but you.

The Ultimate Truth is this;  Life is Difficult and Painful.

Once you are prepared to recognise that truth, once you are prepared to accept, appreciate, and understand that Life is Difficult and Painful, then you can transcend all pain and suffering.  You can take your first step on the warrior’s path to freedom from desolation and misery.

The first step in any journey is always the hardest.  It will mean uncertainty, leaving your comfort zone, doing things that seem unnatural, and at first it may seem just as painful as the misery you’re trying to leave behind.  But, you have to know this ~ follow the warrior’s path and things will get better.  Your life will become even better than you could ever have imagined it could be.

The first step is to recognise and accept that you are the cause of your own unhappiness.  Whatever the proximate cause of your misery and unhappiness, be it alcoholism, gambling, an abusive relationship, or whatever is your personal purgatory, the ultimate cause of your pain is your own need for instant gratification.  We must to accept that the causes of all our problems and unhappiness are our own cravings, desires, wants, lusts, needs, and our blaming of others when things don’t go the way we want them to.

The path to freedom from suffering and pain is through self-discipline in body, mind and spirit.  This is the ultimate answer to Life, our Psychological Cosmos, and Everything.

Self-discipline is hard, it means not taking that next drink, not having that next cigarette, not overeating, not placing our happiness in the hands of another.  Self-discipline means turning up for work on time, getting enough good quality sleep, getting enough fresh air and exercise.  Self-discipline means not blaming others for our misfortunes, not spending money we don’t have, not allowing ourselves to become infatuated with someone who will never truly return our affections.  Self-discipline is what will free you from pain, misery, and the teachings of false prophets.

You don’t need the hurt anymore, and you don’t need the pain in your life.  I promise you that if you accept and understand that you can’t ever change what happens to you, but you can change what you do, then your shadows will turn into warm sunlight.  Don’t ever allow yourself to give in to your craving for instant gratification, have the patience to appreciate, accept,and understand yourself, trust in yourself and not in others, and your life will get better.  Your whole life will improve very fast, and it will be better than you have ever dreamed possible.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

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Keep moving forward and opening new doors.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

Thought Police

Big Brother is watching You.

Sometimes it’s called Political Correctness, and sometimes Equality and Diversity, and sometimes Inclusively, but by whatever name it’s a sickness taking over our society in the name of Human Rights.  If you say the wrong thing, if your opinions don’t fit in, if anyone thinks you show disrespect towards minorities, you too could be prosecuted for a hate crime.

There was of course no way of knowing whether you were being watched at any given moment.  ~  George Orwell, from 1984.

Along with many, many other UK Institutions All Souls College, Oxford, now has a diversity officer, whose job it is to warn or discipline colleagues who stereotype, show disrespect towards minorities, or create a climate in which an individual might feel their dignity infringed.  That sounds a lot like thought police to me.

Campuses that were once havens of free speech are now patrolled and regulated by thought police.  Intellectual dishonesty has become a job requirement for University Administrators.  ~  Michael Barone.

A woman, 26, appeared in court accused of raping a man, twice.  How the hell does that work?  How can a woman rape a man?  Turns out that the rapist, Katie Brennan, was born a man, but we weren’t initially allowed to know that because of the political correctness surrounding misgendering.  To qualify as rape I assume that Katie Brennan still had male genitals at the time of the assault, but we aren’t allowed to know that either.  I do know that, for a woman, the transgender Katie Brennan looks like a bloke.

The militant transgender lobby are powerful, and have found natural allies within the left-leaning liberal BBC, (British Broadcasting Corporation).  Anyone who questions the self-proclaimed ‘rights’ of transgender people will be silenced.

Axe, machete, knife, truck, and bomb attacks all across Europe are responded to by anti-terror squads, even though nobody in the media ever calls these incidents terrorism, and certainly never Islamic religious terrorism.  In order to fit in with multiculturalism we are usually told that the attacker comes from somewhere that isn’t on President Trump’s list of banned countries, (until the real story comes out).  Even the British Government are keen to push this non-Islamic terrorism line by saying that one in three terror suspects arrested in Britain last year was white.  Which means that two-thirds of those arrested in the UK on suspicion of being a terrorist was non-white.  Only 10% of the censored UK population is non-white ~ so 10% of our population commit 66% of terrorist attacks.  Yet, nobody is ever allowed to say that Islamic extremism is a problem in Great Britain ~ because of Political Correctness.

The term ‘Political Correctness’ has always appalled me, reminding me of Orwell’s ‘Thought Police’ and fascist regimes.  ~  Helmut Newton

The thought police are powerful enough to stifle scientific debate, change world politics, and even dictate the car you drive to work.  Anyone who dares to challenge the politically correct view that man-made carbon dioxide is causing catastrophic anthropogenic climate change will be labeled a ‘denier’.  This is the language of religious intolerance and has nothing to do with science.  You know what?  The whole man-made global warming industry is a scam, and pointing out that the Emperor has no clothes will have the proponents of global warming going into fits of apoplexy.  But respectable scientists never question the man-made global warming mantra because to do so would mean that they never again get published, never get another grant, see their tenure cut off…  Question anthropogenic climate change and your career as a scientist is over.

Women can say anything they want to men, or blacks to whites, with impunity.  But strong words in the other direction can bring down the wrath of the thought police, as well as punishments… ~  Thomas Sowell

I am English, and I like to think I’m a Gentleman, so there are some things I would never say in public, and there are some opinions which are an anathema to me.  However, there are some things I’d like to say, and some thoughts I’d like to think, that I’m not allowed to for fear of running up against the Politically Correct, Diversity Inclusive, Thought Police.  I thought we’d spent the last few hundred years working and fighting for freedom of thought and expression.

Maybe not.  Maybe I am a prisoner in my own land.

Remember, Big Brother is watching You.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

 

 

5 Ways To Lose Money Fast

a fool and his money are soon parted

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If you want to lose money really fast, or just guarantee that you will go broke eventually, then here are some brilliant ideas for you;

  1. Online Gambling.  Gambling in any form ~ from playing the slots in Las Vegas, to betting on horse racing at a high-street bookmaker in England ~ is guaranteed to lose you as much money as you like.  All those attractive online gambling sites just allow you to lose your money with 24/7 dedication from the comfort of your own home / office / car…  Online Forex Trading is just another form of gambling ~ you will lose loads of money.
  2. Wall StreetForex Trading.  The foreign exchange market exists for some very sensible reasons ~ it allows me to pay for a hotel stay in Wyoming, (priced in $), on my English credit card, (denominated in £).  Unecessary trading on the the Forex Market also allows idiots to risk vast amounts of money, and then inevitably lose it.  I’m an expert in all this stuff, and it would take me a week to teach you the basics, so just trust me, you will lose if you go online trading.  Even companies like Rolls Royce get burned, (lately to the tune of £4 billion), due to unecessarily hedging the Forex Market.
  3. Expensive New Cars.  A hot set of wheels might boost your ego,  get you a hot date, and it will also lose you a fortune.  Almost all cars depreciate over time, and some high-status cars depreciate at an horrific rate.  Add in the high cost on insuring your new car, and the good chance that you’ll crash the thing if you ever drive it hard, and an expensive new car can be a real money pit.  Best of all, get drunk, drive really fast, and then roll your car down a freeway embankment.  By the way, never believe a car salesperson, all sales people are professional liars, and I should know because I used to be one.
  4. Online Dating.  If your expensive new car hasn’t got you a real date, you could be a totally insane pathetic loser and try online dating as well.  Online dating isn’t cheap, both in terms of money and time.  And, it’s one of most dangerous things you can do, for example both human and robot scammers target the sad people who use online dating sites.  Or, you could get used, abused, robbed, raped, or dead.  If you just want to ruin your life, the get yourself addicted to paid online porn.
  5. Dangerous Drugs.  I include here; street drugs including marijuana, prescription drugs, party drugs, legal highs, tobacco, and booze.  To really waste a great deal of money while ruining your health and your life along the way, then get into everything at once.  Best of all get buzzed and go on the internet with your credit cards to hand.  Do not go near 12 step groups like Alcoholics Anonymous.

There are some other brilliant ways to go broke fast; trophy wife, mistress, toyboy, high-class hookers, marrying a foreigner, getting sick abroad without proper insurance, buying a home without having a full survey, signing things you don’t understand, and perhaps best of all guaranteed get rich quick schemes.

smoking-slutIf you really throw yourself into the above activities, not only could you lose all the money you have, you could also get yourself heavily into debt with some nasty people.  Along the way you are very likely to lose your self-respect, job, real friends, home, family, health, and maybe your life.  If you want to go downhill really, really fast, then I recommend you start at #5 and work your way upwards.

Most of you will never get as far as #1 because you’ll be on the streets, in jail, or dead long before that.  If you work diligently at #5 you could be dead broke and dead in a couple of years.

Good luck with totally ruining your life by getting heavily into any of the above financially stupid moves.

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smoking-whorethese thoughts are mine, and mine alone

jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

Money Advice ~ Insurance

shylockBefore we go any further to talk about the most common types on insurance ~ and do you need them or not? ~ there is something you should know about insurance agreements.  Any contract of insurance is a contract uberrimae fidei ~ a contract of utmost good faith.  This means that you must tell your insurance company everything and anything which may have a bearing on the risk they are taking on.  If you keep any significant information back, the chances are you are not insured at all.

For example, if you have put bigger wheels and tyres than standard on your car,  you should tell your car insurance company.  If you’re an alcoholic / drug addict / smoker / overweight / pyromaniac, you should tell your Life Assurance company.  If you have ever been refused insurance, you should tell your insurance company.  And when you advise your insurance company of something pertinent, do it in writing.

All insurance companies love to collect premiums.  All insurance companies hate to pay out for any claims, and will do anything and everything to avoid paying a claim.  For example, you not telling your car insurance company that you have recently been found guilty of driving while intoxicated will most likely void your insurance entirely, and they will not pay out under any circumstances.  So if in doubt, tell all, in writing ~ else you’re probably not insured at all.  And, always pay your insurance premiums by automated bank transfer / direct debit / ACH transfer.

Your best friends when it comes to making a claim are photographs.  Always take plenty of pictures of everything, including your home / car / self as it is right now, before anything bad happens.  Store these pictures in a cloud, on your blog, in social media…  so you can always get at them if the worst happens.

The five most common and necessary types of insurance are;

  1. rta1Motor / car / vehicle / driver’s cover.  In civilised countries it is a legal requirement for you to be insured for the exact car you are driving.  The penalties for driving while uninsured are severe.  In the small print of your insurance policy it probably says that you should not drive while you are incapable, and that includes driving after drinking.  Have an accident drink driving and the chances are you are uninsured.
  2. Home and contents insurance.  Because of the inflexible nature of the laws of probability, you should have your home and its contents fully insured, or face a life on the streets.   Maybe add a margin of 10% in excess of the estimated values, to account for unexpected expenses while you put your life back together after your home has burned down, blown up due to a gas leak, been destroyed in an earthquake, flooded…
  3. Travel insurance.  When travelling abroad you may, or probably may not, be entitled to medical services in the country you are visiting.  You may have an accident, lose your luggage, get hijacked, robbed… any number of disasters may happen.  Travel is by its very nature hazardous and stressful.  Things which would be a minor inconvenience at home may become a catastrophe if they happen in a foreign country, or even a different state.  If you are travelling abroad, or a very long way, you need comprehensive travel insurance.  Only idiots don’t buy travel insurance.
  4. dentist-toothMedical / health insurance.  I’m English and I don’t have any medical insurance, and that doesn’t bother me in the slightest, (for reasons that are too complicated to go into here I do have dental).  In the United Kingdom we have a National Health Service, (NHS), which provides free treatment at the point of care.  The NHS is paid for out of taxation.  Canada has a similar system. If you live anywhere else you really, really need comprehensive medical cover.  But remember, you must tell your insurer everything there is to know about your degenerate lifestyle.
  5. Life Assurance.  (not life insurance, you are going to die, you can’t insure against it).  A whole life policy pays out a sum of money when you die.  You don’t need this.  However, if you have a dependant family, then you may want to look after them when you’re dead, therefore most heads of households buy one or more life policies.  You don’t actually need to do this.  It’s actually much more cost-effective to just save the money you would have paid in premiums.  But nobody has that much self-discipline.  I have no dependants, therefore my life assurance policies are utterly pointless, except to pay for my funeral.

Getting life insurance is like making a bet you can’t win.  If you live,  you don’t get the money.  If you die, you don’t get to enjoy the money.  ~  Oliver Gaspirtz

There are many, many other common forms of insurance, and some really esoteric insurance policies.  Lloyds of London will insure against just about anything.  You could probably have got insured at Lloyds against Donald Trump being the 45th President of the United States.  After all, insurance is really just a bet.

Even Life Assurance is just a bet.  The bet isn’t about if you’re going to die or not ~ no matter how much you pray you are going to die.  With life assurance the bet is about when you are going to die, not if.  And, if you think about it, that’s just creepy.

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It-s-A-Wonderful-Life-its-a-wonderful-lifethese opinions are mine and mine alone

jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

Driving Dangerously

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Booze, Prescription Drugs, Street Drugs, Excessive Speed, Failing to Stop, Using A Cell Phone, Reading, Unroadworthy Vehicle, No Insurance, No Licence….

I firmly believe that almost all drivers have driven while they shouldn’t, or in cars that they shouldn’t be driving, or without the proper documentation, or done something they shouldn’t be doing while they were driving.  (oral sex, or searching for a pack of cigarettes in your purse, for example )

The most common really stupid thing drivers do is use their cell / mobile to talk / text / surf the internet / watch sports while they are driving.  And, don’t try to tell me you’ve never done that, because I won’t believe you.

Texting while driving increases the risk of accident 23.2 times over unimpaired driving.  ~  Virginia Tech Transportation Institute

But, and without a shadow of a doubt, the worst road crime is driving while intoxicated.  A hell of a lot of other illegal stuff can be put down to people drinking and driving ~ excessive speed for example.  And, driving under the influence of booze is not just dumb, it’s amoral, criminal, and dangerous.

I really don’t believe anyone who says they have never driven while intoxicated, or under the influence of prescription / illegal drugs.  Everyone who drives and who also sometimes drinks booze, or sometimes takes some form of mind-altering drugs, (including prescription painkillers), has driven when they shouldn’t.

There’s no question that we need tougher drunk-driving laws.  We need to take a lesson from European countries where driving isn’t a right but a privilege.  ~  Jesse Ventura.

Back in the day I knew an alcoholic who had been a very senior police officer in charge of road traffic accidents.  He shared that almost all really bad accidents involved a drunk driver.  He also shared that it wasn’t seeing so many deaths, or even the dead and horribly maimed children, that had pushed him over the edge into depression and booze.  What really destroyed him was the decapitations, bodies without heads and heads without bodies.

If you are involved in a road traffic accident and you suspect / know the other driver has been breaking the law ~ texting while he rear-ended your car for example ~ then call the police, and take a shed-load of pictures.  You may get lucky, and the police might shoot arrest the miscreant,

If you are the guilty driver, then don’t expect any sympathy whatsoever, from anyone except another dumb criminal

Think about this ~ do you want to be the one to run down a child, destroying her life and the lives of her family in the process?

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rta1jackcollier7@talktalk.net

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What Men Want

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What do men really want?  Exactly what is important to a man?

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It’s all much easier to explain than what women really want.  What men really want begins and ends with sex.

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moonwolfjackcollier7@talktalk.net

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Genetically Modified Mosquitoes

Am I the only one who thinks that releasing genetically modified mosquitoes in the Florida Keys to help combat the Zika virus is a terrible idea?

Aedes mosquitoNot quite.  Local residents have launched a campaign to stop the release of these mutant bugs on the grounds that this kind of idiocy almost always has catastrophic unintended consequences.  It seems a British company, (Oxitec), has programmed a strain of male Aedes Aegypti mosquitoes to only have offspring which will die before they reach breeding age.  Seems to me that these British scientists don’t know much about these nasty little critters.  One obvious snag is there are just so many of these insects and they have such a fast life cycle.  What’s worse is that these GM bugs have not undergone proper testing ~ the Florida Keys release is by way of a very large-scale test.

mosquitoAnother snag is that disease carrying mosquitoes are not just in Florida.  If you believe in global warming they are also going to be a problem in South Carolina, Georgia, Alabama, Mississippi, Louisiana, and California.  And, just do not even think of going anywhere south of the Mexican border.

The US Food and Drug Administration loves to approve GM organisms which haven’t been thoroughly tested, and without understanding what the long-term effects are going to be.  Why is that?  Money or hubris?

Female Aedes Aegypti mosquitoes, (females are the dangerous, blood-sucking, ones), mate in a swarming cloud of males, and can lay a clutch of 100 or so eggs on a damp surface near stagnant water.  The malarial mosquito was just about eliminated worldwide by DDT, (now banned), and completely eliminated in Panama during the building of the canal by eradicating the open, still water, on which the larvae depend.  (Spraying water with oil works well…)

CAPTION: "640-A.- Application of Larvacide {Mosquito Oil} by use of Knapsack Sprayer. -Miraflores, C.Z.[Canal Zone], June"

The disastrous results of previous animal releases still blight the world.  Just ask the Australians what they think of bullfrogs and rabbits.  Or the more enlightened New Zealanders what they think about cats.  Come to that haven’t the Oxitec people ever seen Jurassic Park?

Three outcomes are likely from this release, none of them good;

  1. This GM mosquito technique will cost a fortune and won’t work at all.
  2. The genetically modified Aedes Aegypti will mutate into something else.
  3. This will work, the Aedes Aegypti will die out and something even nastier will take their place, (the Asian tiger mosquito, for example).

Man has a habit of doing things because they are possible, and not because they are such a good idea.  Nature has a habit of finding a way to exploit man’s best intentions.

You don’t need to be Einstein to see that this is all going to end in tears.

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albert-einsteinjackcollier7@talktalk.net

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Alternative Living # 7 ~ Alone

locked-doorLiving alone is perhaps the ultimate expression of the alternative lifestyle, yet so many people now live a solitary existence in their home.  Perhaps I have taken it a little far with my Rule # 2 Nobody Is Allowed Into The Garret.  (The garret is what I call my small loft apartment.)  Literally this means I never have house guests, dinner guests, lunch guests, random visitors, or girls I want to sleep with, in my place.  My place is my space and I don’t want another person in my space.

There are upsides to this very solitary lifestyle.  For example; nobody leaves their junk around, everything is tidy and clean, the garret is exactly the way I want it, I can do whatever I want when I want, and I never have to ask anyone if they’re happy with what I am doing or how I am doing it.  If I need to paint the whole place black, then I will.  As it happens the garret is completely decorated and furnished in white and natural wood.

You know, one of my fears about living alone so long is that you get used to doing everything your own way.  ~  Terry McMillan

There are some downsides to my isolated and remote life.  For example being seen as antisocial and reclusive, which I am anyhow.  Other potential downsides include being; lonely, friendless, introverted, withdrawn, introspective, unsociable, and being literally without help in times of crisis.

dink+smokeSome people who live alone can develop some quite nasty habits, for example; never washing or changing their clothes, never cleaning the place, not eating properly, keeping strange hours, drinking too much, smoking too much, taking drugs, watching too much pornography, spending all of their time on-line…  In fact, living alone can be dangerous for your health.

I have been guilty of some of these undesirable habits from time to time ~ particularly drinking too much and keeping strange hours.

Perhaps the most common characteristic of someone who lives alone is that we become far too reflective and thoughtful, too introspective, too philosophical and meditative, too broody and serious, too melancholy and solemn, and too set in our ways.  This can lead to some serious mental health problems such as melancholic depression ~ luckily for me it’s mostly women who suffer from this treatment resistant disorder.  My personal disorders are that I suffer from obsessive thinking ~ which I have always had, but then I have mostly always lived and worked alone.

Hungry people are always thinking about food; poor people are always thinking about wealth.  Obsessive thinking can kill your dreams.  ~  Stephen Richards

The ‘cure’ for living alone but not falling into these traps is to have an active life outside of your home.  However, as I have discovered to my cost, taking the solitary lifestyle mindset outside the sanctuary of your own home can get you into serious trouble.  What gets you into more trouble is if you flip from being solitary and introspective at home, into being extrovert and available outside of the home.

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Smoking-Cigarette-holderjackcollier7@talktalk.net

Negative Emotions and Alcoholism

Lost WeekendI have had a problem with drink for many years.  I can stay away from booze for long periods, but eventually I will go back to self-medicating with alcohol.

How to stop this binge drinking has puzzled me, and long seemed an insoluble problem.  However, after my last relapse a couple of things have become somewhat clearer.  It is now plain to me that my going back to boozing has always followed some crisis of negative emotions.

These negative emotions include irrational feelings of;

Anger, anxiety, bitterness, conceit, depression, disgust, envy, fear, frustration, grief, hatred, jealousy, perfectionism, possessiveness, resentment, righteousness, ruthlessness, sadness, self-hatred, self-pity, shame, unhappiness, and being untrusting.

Usually what I feel is an amalgam of several, or all of these emotions, at one in the same time.  Basically I feel angry, anxious and miserable.  From some research I have come to believe that the onset of these negative emotions may be the result of attention seeking and drama addiction on my part.  For goodness sake, attention seeking is something that one is supposed to grow out of!  Maybe when I was younger I discovered that displaying powerful negative emotions were a certain way to get attention?

Brains wired to equate lack if attention as dangerous, naturally respond to it as a threat….  Psychology Today

However, there is one piece of good news.  Excessive attention seeking is not considered a character defect, it is usually the result of childhood neglect, (in relative terms).

I suspect the reason compulsive over-eaters, alcoholics and substance abusers are more prone to excess attention seeing and drama addiction is because those populations are more likely to have endured developmental trauma. ~ Billi Gordon Ph.D  Psychology Today

There are undoubtedly better strategies for dealing with negative emotions than getting drunk.  There are also probably strategies for dealing with an excessive need for attention and drama

Spirituality, meditation, self-control are not strangers to me, so why do I sometimes lose these good things and wallow in anger, depression, jealousy and drink?

What I need to do is find these new coping strategies because drinking is doing me no good at all.  My last two, (or was it three), day binge caused a complete memory loss  ~  I cannot remember several important events that took place during my latest ‘slip’ as Alcoholics Anonymous call going back to drinking again.  As these important life events mostly involved my losing my temper, they are something to be avoided.  In the past three months I have also badly hurt myself, twice, while intoxicated.

Psychologists say that there is no actual cure for what may be wrong in my brain. The doctors say the rewiring is permanent, short of invasive surgery, but they also say I can manage my condition.  In order to do that am resolved to accept what I am, and love what I have more than what I don’t have.  I shall look for the good things in my life and try to accept these negative emotions for what they really are, a dangerous chimera which I can fight with the right strategies.

Life presents itself in constantly changing ways, but you’re able to accept the challenges, rather than recoil, throw up your hands, and go on a binge.  Carnie Wilson.

I have realised that I am not my pain.  I know I may never beat my problems, but I can ameliorate their dangerous effects.  Perhaps instead of binge drinking, I need to do something spiritual, like watching the sunrise over the sea.  Perhaps instead of losing my temper I should focus on the good friends I have, and how supportive they have been.  All I know is that I will give these new strategies my very best shot, and hope to do better in future.

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P1040220jackcollier7@talktalk.net

 

 

 

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