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Drugs and Loose Morals

Immorality is the natural mind-set of all politicians.

Yet another English politician is linked with using the illegal drug cocaine.  This time it’s Boris Johnson, the favourite to become next leader of the conservative party ~ the once natural party of government in the United Kingdom.  This is no surprise as just about every other contender for this top political job is also a proven (past or present) drug user.

Some say that using drugs in the past should not prevent someone from getting on in politics, effectively holding down a top job, and being a success. Some say that smoking pot does not indicate that the stoner is a bad person, a liar lacking in morals.

I disagree.  I contend that anyone who has used cocaine is dishonest, amoral, dishonest, and unethical.  To begin with, if these people have ever entered the USA, they have lied to US customs and immigration. And, I don’t want a proven liar as a potential leader of my country.  But then, all politicians lie all the time, don’t they?

Some say that all drug users are also addicted to other things; alcohol, gambling, infidelity, casual sex….  All I know is that no male politician, business leader, or top public official, has ever been able  to keep his dick in his trousers.  In my experience most men and women who use / have used drugs are also heavy drinkers, gamblers, liars, and not averse to casual sex.  But then, everyone has skeletons in their closet, don’t they?

Some say that the lawlessnes and knife crime on the streets of London can be directly linked to the non-enforcement of the UK’s drug laws by politicians and officials themselves guilty of illegal drugs use.

Some say that there is noting wrong with a dishonest, amoral, sexually promiscuous person leading a country / business / charity / law enforcement agency.  And that using drugs in the past shouldn’t affect someone’s life today.  All I know is that I prefer to know ethical, honest, clean and (mostly) sober people in my life

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Jack Collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

How long before we see this on our streets again?

 

Using marijuana is deadly dangerous.

As legalization spreads, more Americans are becoming heavy users of cannabis, despite its link to violence and mental illness.  ~ The Wall Street Journal.

The resting place for alcoholics, bums, and drug users.

The ideas I want to share with you are considered subversive and ant-social.  But subversion can be a good thing.  Sometimes going against mainstream opinions is not only justified, it is necessary to counter vested interests, prejudice, error, bigotry, and bad science.  If an idea or opinion is not universally accepted, that does not per se mean that the different theory is wrong.  Galileo was denounced for suggesting that the Earth orbited the  Sun.

There exists today an extraordinary denial of the clear links between cannabis use, mental illness, crime, and violence.  For what is the real difference between pot, cocaine,  heroin, and sundry other dangerous psychoactive drugs, all of which lead to the untimely death of someone?

As many Americans are regular users of dangerous psychoactive drugs as there are Americans who drink booze every day.  And the cannabis used today is far stronger than it was is the 1970s, containg more than 10 times as much THC now than it did back then.  ( The psychoactive ingredient of cannabis is TetraHydroCannabinoil.)

Some of the effects of THC on the brain are a lowered IQ, an increased risk of psychosis, schizophrenia, paranoia, delusions, hallucianations, losing touch with reality, reduced cognition, impaired and false memories, and a hell of a lot of ‘neural noise’. THC also totally fucks the brain’s pleasure / reward systems, suppressing self control, leading to increased appetite for food, booze, sex, more drugs…..

Using marijuana has detrimental physical effects causing breathing problems, cardiovascular dangers, intense nausea and vomiting, weight issues.  If a pregnant mother uses cannabis she is seriously damaging the foetus in her womb.

Marijuana users experience; lower life satisfaction, poor mental health, poorer physical health, and serious relationship issues.  These effects are very long term / permanent, even if you are / were an occasional user of this insidious drug.

Personally I would never get involved with any marijuana user, or indeed anyone who abuses drugs of any kind.  And, addicts of anything are infinitely more dangerous than someone who is clean and healthy in body, mind, and spirit.

Just a couple of examples of cannabis fuelled violence: #1 the Islamic terrorists who carried out a devastating attack on innocent passers-by on London Bridge on the 3rd of June 2017 were all habitual users of marijuana, #2 the despicable youth who deliberately drove into a young girl in Utah on Friday 31st of May this year was high on a mixture of cannabis, Xanax, and booze.  He  killed the 11 year old girl on purpose.

Some say that marijuana is a relatively harmless drug.  And, that the weed never hurt anyone.  All I know is that using marijuana means that someone is going to die an untimely death.

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Jack Collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

Growing this in England is illegal,

but nobody cares anymore.

Reinvent Yourself

It’s never to late to be what you might have been.

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Most people would like to change some things about themselves.  They may want to be fitter, to lose weight, to be more successful at work, to be more successful with the opposite sex, or maybe just to lose the terrible feeling of dissatisfaction they constantly suffer from.  Or it might be worse, some people want to lose their Borderline Personality Disorder, or paranoia or schizophrenia…..

One thing is certain, we can never get what we want by trying to change other people, nor by attempting to alter the way the world works.  The only thing we can ever change is ourselves.  But, look at the upside, when we change ourselves the whole world and everyone in it changes around us.

Reinventing ourselves into a better looking, cooler, fitter, more effective, more successful, less disturbed person is an essential process if we want to grow and flourish.

Here’s the hard thing.  To reinvent yourself into the person you really want to be requires some hard choices.  You need to be ready to walk away from aspects of your life in which you may have invested much time, effort, and money; the way you look, the personality you project, your existing career, unsuitable friendships, toxic relationships with the opposite sex, a dead-end marriage, the pub where you get drunk and try to get casual sex with anyone you may meet at the bar…..

Worse than that, you may have to forget and hide some of your past; the alcoholism, drug taking, criminal record, gambling, over-eating, casual sex, heavy smoking…..

Invent yourself and then reinvent yourself….. and reinvent your life because you must; it is your life and its history and the present belong only to you.  ~  Charles Bukowski.

To reinvent yourself and have a truly successful life, ask yourself these questions;

  • What should I stop doing and thinking?
  • What should I start doing, thinking, and being?
  • What could and should I do less of?
  • What could and should I do more of?
  • What could I do, think, and be differently from who I used to be.

Reinventing yourself can be a difficult and lonely path, and it is not a one-shot deal.  Truly reinventing yourself is an on-going process you will have to work at, every single day.

Some say they already have everything their heart desires.  And there is nothing really wrong with them that a few days sober and clean wouldn’t put right.  All I know is that denial is the greatest block to becoming a better person.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

 

Somebody here is going to get into trouble

or maybe they both will.

Negative Emotions

Cultivate love within you and negative emotions will disappear.

Negative emotions are so all-pervasive that doctors will now prescribe drugs like Prozac and Valium to patients who are merely feeling mild anxiety.  Really negative emotions, such as; anger, boredom, confusion, despair, disappointment, fear, grief, jealousy, resentment….. are extremely powerful and painful.  Medication, and self-medication such as booze, are no solution whatsoever.  Go down that road and you will become hypersensitive to your feelings, and take more and more of the drugs of your choice in an attempt to medicate them away.

This is just treating the symptoms, and it doesn’t work.  I should know, for many years I had a pot-mess of those negative feelings running through my psyche.  And none of those negative emotions did me any good at all.

So, what takes people back to the doctor, the pharmacy, the drug dealer, and the bar?  Not to mention the casino, the refrigerator, unsuitable relationships, and casual sex.  Escaping painful thoughts and negative emotions drive people to do stupid things, all in an effort to find a pleasure rush that will ameliorate those bad thoughts and terrible feelings.

There is also the thought that just one drink, or one piece of cake, or one small wager wouldn’t hurt at all.  Besides, you’ve been pretty good all week, so one little slip is OK.  Forget that, escaping really negative emotions takes a lot more than just one drink, or one night fucking a stranger.  And the guilt you will feel, (even if you don’t acknowledge that guilt), will make your bad feelings worse.

Your mind will tell you that you might as well give up on losing weight, staying sober, being good, because it’s pointless.  You will never get better, just take another pill and have another drink.

To truly escape those negative emotions and bad feelings you have to find another way.  This might involve a 12-step group, talking therapy, or completely changing your lifestyle ~ more exercise is good.  Try walking 10,000 steps a day.  Mostly, stay away from those people, places and situations that encourage you to do bad things that will only feed your negative emotions.

Some say the way to escape negative emotions is to turn to drink.  And that moving home and finding new friends is the solution.  All I know is that running away never solves anything.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

get out the back Jack

make a new plan Stan

no need to be coy Roy

Live Within Your Means

To achieve your goals and dreams you are going to need money.

Back in the day I worked in banking and finance, and I saw first-hand just how much of a mess most people could make of their finances ~ usually due to buying things they couldn’t really afford.  The three main culprits when it came to unaffordable and expensive purchases were; cars, clothes / shoes, and vacations ~ none of which are essential.  (There’s a caveat, in that you may actually need a car and you do need clothes and shoes, but you can buy the cheapest used stuff you can find, rather than flashy and expensive.)

You do not need to be a millionaire, or act like a millionaire, to be successful or feel successful.  Financial wealth is only one indicator of success.  However, you’re going to need money just to live day-to-day, and no successful person has ever ignored their finances.  Conversely, all successful people know how to manage their money and plan their finances.  And rule #1 is Borrowing is Bad, especially if you borrow money you can’t easily pay off.

Financial planning begins with these 4 questions;

  1. How much money do you take home each month?
  2. What are your regular bills; mortgage, utilities, taxes, loan repayments?
  3. How much do you spend each month in the various stores you use; clothes, groceries, gas, booze, cigarettes, etc?
  4. What assets and debts do you have?

If you are in the fortunate position of making more money than you regularly spend, then you should also be able to work out how much you are saving each month.

You need to write all this down, either just pen and paper, or on a spreadsheet.

If you are regularly spending more than you earn, then you are heading for deep shit.

If you are regularly spending more than you earn, then you need to totally cut out some of your expenditure.  Stop buying booze, cigarettes, chocolate, and anything else you may be addicted to; gambling, porn, sex, drugs…..  Always buy the cheapest gas, buy less expensive groceries, stop eating out, stop using the deli to buy your lunchtime sandwiches and make them at home instead…..

Borrowing is Bad.  Some borrowing is worse.  PAY OFF YOUR CREDIT CARDS.  Credit card debt is ruinously expensive.  In this day and age if your paying more than 10% as an annual interest rate on a loan, then stop eating until that debt is paid off.

Some say that they can make money playing online poker.  And, that its good to go to the pub most nights a week.  All I know is that some people end up on the street.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

 

life on the street is no fun

Inner Distress and Compulsions

Our anxiety does not come from thinking about the future,
but from wanting to control it.  ~  Khalil Gibran

To a greater or lesser degree we all suffer from what the medical profession call endogenous anxiety / depression ~ which is a complicated way of saying that your therapist / psychiatrist / doctor has no idea why you sometimes feel bad and sometimes go off the rails.

I firmly believe that the underlying cause of all the anxiety, distress, depressions, compulsions, and weaknesses we sometimes suffer from is the direct result of the programming we received before our conscious minds were developed enough to filter out all the bad crap we were subjected to.  Even before you were born, your subconscious mind, body, and spirit was receiving the shitty, negative programs you still live by today.  Remember, your subconscious mind is running things for about 90% of the time.

After conception, right up to the age of around 7, your mind, body, and spirit were being programmed by everything in your environment ~ especially your parents, siblings, other members of your extended family, teachers, TV, & etc. & etc.  And you know what?  It’s all the bad, negative, and defective stuff that really sticks.

The likelihood is that your subconscious mind is full of stuff like; ‘the world is a dangerous place’ ‘people are not to be trusted’ ‘you have to struggle to survive’ and ‘you have to fight to get what you need, want, and desire’.

I also firmly believe that our inner distress is why we may struggle with addictions and compulsions like; booze, casual sex, a bad diet, drugs, health, lack of exercise, money problems, smoking, impulsive behaviours, and all those defects of character we might have, or that others say we have.

How can we fix this?  Not through willpower, self-discipline, nor self-control.  The only way I know to escape the inner distress, anxiety, depression, compulsions, and addictions we honestly accept and admit we suffer from is through a long time, (maybe years), of acting as if these problems and bad feelings did not exist.  Or as they say in 12 Step Groups fake it to make it.

Some say that only the weak do things that they really shouldn’t.  And that anyone can cure their own addictions and defects of character if they just use a little willpower and self-control.  All I know is that every worthwhile person I have ever met has suffered from profound inner distress

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

 

your subconscious mind can become your own prison

The Flat Earth Conspiracy

Those who are able to see beyond shadows will never be understood.

April Fools Day

The Earth from Space.  (that’s Atlanta GA in the centre)

A bunch of conspiracy theorists who persist in believing that the Earth is flat are planning a trip to Antarctica to see ‘the end of the world’.  I think they really mean the “edge of the world”, but you wouldn’t expect anyone who believes in a flat Earth to have a good grasp of semantics.

Good luck on that trip.  If the Earth really was as flat as a pancake they would never get there because all navigation by sea and air relies entirely on the fact that the Earth is an oblate spheroid ~ that is not at all flat.

Mind you, as the next meeting of the Flat Earth International Conference will be held in Dallas, Texas, the spiritual home of conspiracy theories.  I’m guessing that their meetings are filled with febrile debates about nothing that is within shouting distance of reality.  You know what?  I would have expected the Flat Earth Bunch to be headquartered in California, where they really do know how to party with psychoactive substances.

There is no evidence whatsoever for a flat Earth, other than the evidence of our own eyes when our feet are planted firmly on the ground.  In that case, when we look around us, the Earth does seem flat ~ other than hills and mountains, and valleys, and gorges…..  The Pythagorean theorem, one of the oldest mathematical proofs in Euclidian Geometry, is predicated on the Earth being flat.  However, Pythagoras falls apart when great distances across the Earth are involved, in which case we need to use spherical trigonometry.  (Which only works for big balls.)

As far back as Columbus in 1492 AD, navigators knew the Earth was a spheroid, although Columbus got the circumference badly wrong.  The Norse Vikings knew the Earth was a sphere when they travelled to America in about 1,000 AD.  The Ancient Greeks were thinking about a spherical Earth in the 6th Century BC, and before that the Phoenicians navigated great distances based on the idea that the Earth was a sphere.

The Moon is a sphere too

Only in the Bible is the idea of a flat Earth much popularised, and as we all know, everything in the bible can be treated as the Gospel Truth.  However, if you are interested in exploring the flat Earth conundrum, the Flat Earth Society has a cool website  https://www.tfes.org/

Some say that NASA’s sole reason for existence is to propagandize the public and promote this false ball-Earth heliocentric worldview.  And that there was never a moon landing, it was all shot in a studio in Culver City.  All I know is that some gullible fools are eager to believe the stupidest pseudo-scientific dross.  And the moon really is made of green cheese.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

 

some say that real women have absolutely no sense of direction, and that no woman will ever admit that they’re wrong,  some of that is mostly true

Psychedelic Fire Serpent

She who is possessed by carnal desire for the serpent is lost.

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Dawn, and smell the sulpher from the dragon’s breath as she purred

Her Life is a journey of imagined adventures, so lie back and enjoy the ride

Eat a marijuana cookie explore the inner Cosmos to see the rainbow serpent

Experimenting playing with psychedelic substances has always been her forte

Smiling as she watches the kaleidoscopic mordant rainbows melt and change

Reality is an illusion, real life is what she thinks in the strange deranged moment

No angels in bright, white raiment there, only darkly amorous vampyres play

At night, cats are black, vampyres are dark, except for the ones you mirror watched

Lazily, indolently, intoxicated, she dallied with a dulcimer as my heart was shattered

Venus was breaking, creating lust; then she said with laciviousness falsely enamored ~

if you want to prove your love, then bring me the head of the mirrored dragon

Or dead red roses in the hard midnight rain

Why think rationally?  Common sense never had fair maiden

and fear never won the day

Neither in her canopied bed, nor even at the dismal end of a misted swamp

Bitter better man never gets chance to play with carnal women and absinthe

She’s beautifully dangerous, I desire her this moonlit night, and she is not patient

There are never certainties, nothing a man can ever trust, there is only useful myth

It could be worse, if the iron dice roll, may the Goddess help me

When she fails, take me back to Liars Bar again, finally

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

 

a vampyre will always bite

dragons burns, and women lie

et une belle biche, elle est gratuit

Songs on Saturday ~ Imagine Dragons

Chasing Imagined Dragons, she’s one part brave, one part a sorceress.

I know a woman who likes snakes, octopuses, and probably chasing dragons.

She likes psychedelic art, abstract spiral trees, and abandoned buildings.

But then, I like, love, and adore exotic, weird, mysterious women.

Just perhaps, this strange song and weird video are for her.

Please listen responsibly.

~

jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

never kiss a Goddess holding a snake

and never look into their eyes

 

The Invention of Memory

You can close your eyes to reality, but not to your memories.

In a very full life I have known some people with very bad memories, they just can’t or won’t remember anything much.  I’ve been told by a close friend that it’s possible to completely forget years and years of your early childhood.  And, I’ve known people with false memories, manufactured memories, and memories that were implanted into their subconscious mind.  Thoughts and memories are just chemical changes and electrical impulses and charges inside your brain ~ memories are easily altered.

A memory of the past which is either non-existent, false, manufactured, or implanted is often the result of alcohol abuse, the abuse of prescription drugs, or using any street drugs at all, especially marijuana.  Booze and drugs tend to destroy the memory vitamins B1 and B12, and the negative effects on memory can go on for years after the heavy drinking or drug taking has stopped.  Booze, in particular, robs the body of B vitamins.  Lack of B1 and B12 has other very bad effects; slowness, confusion, fatigue, irritability, apathy, poor sleep, insomnia, and shortness of breath.

But then, all memories are untrue, because we see the past through the prism of the present ~ all of our present-day character defects and positive character traits change how we remember the past.

Our experiences of pleasure, ecstasy, pain, suffering, and loss extend far beyond our personal recollections.  When we tell others of our memories, then they will react, remember, and retell our memories back to us.  And when we tell others of our past we cannot ever tell the whole truth.

Sometimes we are afraid to admit our past, and sometimes we are ashamed to tell the whole truth.  Also, we can never fully remember the truth of our past.  Our incomplete and inaccurate memories of the past go on to tint our picture of the present, and our expectations of the future.  Sometimes what we think we remember is an event that’s actually happening right now, or we expect to happen in the future, or will happen in the future.  A memory of the past may be nothing of the sort ~ especially if you use alcohol or drugs.  Smoking doesn’t help much with remembering things either.

Some say they can’t remember names, or faces.  And, that they’re always forgetting where they left their car keys.  All I know is that I’m cursed with an eidetic memory.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net.

 

drinking and smoking are no good for your memory and brain health

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