All men dream, but not equally.
Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds, wake in the day to find that it was vanity;
But the dreamers of the day are dangerous men, for they may act on their dreams with open eyes, to make them possible.
and some dreams are but nightmares
I have decided to be happy and healthy
we don’t need to feel alone and lonely
For a while I have been ill, with a myriad of symptoms I couldn’t understand. And, when I say ill, I mean that there have been times when I went to bed I wondered if I would wake up again. There have been days when I wasn’t strong enough to take out the trash, and days when I wasn’t well enough to even take a bath.
My symptoms included;
- extreme fatigue, lack of energy, weariness
- weakness, aches and pains
- depression, low mood, irritability, confusion
- dizziness, unsteadiness, fluctuating blood pressure
- being thirsty all the time, craving salt
- Nausea to the point of throwing up
Honestly, I had no idea what was causing this, and of course my doctor is running various tests. Privately I wondered if I had the coronavirus, or a parasite, or just the ‘flu ~ although the symptoms didn’t quite fit any of the possible causes.
However, a couple of things to do with the way my blood pressure was going up and down could be related to low adrenaline and low testosterone ~ and that’s something called Addison’s Disease.
The reason I have this problem is due to years of boozing too much, and years of mental, emotional, and spiritual stress ~ resulting in damage to my liver and my kidneys.
The treatment for Addison’s Disease is to take strong daily medication like hydrocortisone. I’m not doing that. Instead I am going to look after my body, mind, and spirit ~ especially being kind to my liver.
No alcohol whatsoever, less fat, no dairy at all, cut down on my intake of salt, refined sugar, caffeine, and potassium, (work that one out). I’ll get a lot more fresh air and exercise, stick to a good Mediterranean diet, continue to take good dietary supplements ~ and Avoid Stress.
Just being pretty certain what’s actually been wrong with me, and having a solid plan to cure myself, means that I am already feeling a hell of a lot better.
Most of what ails us comes from within; what we do and don’t do, what we eat and drink, and how we feel. I know I can change all of that for myself.
eggs are not dairy
and potato is good for you
I’m late, I’m late, for a very important date
In the 60’s and 70s we English were not listening to Californian music, so I have never heard this track from Jefferson Airplane before. Woodstock passed us by with barely a murmur The reason I’m playing it now is that we English greet or friends with; ‘white rabbits’ on the first of the month, which was yesterday. (Of course there has to be an R in the month.)
Convoluted I know, and on first hearing I’m not certain I like Californian surfer-dude bands anyhow.
But hey, I like Jefferson Starship, so I’m certain that Jefferson Airplane will grow on me, like a weed.
This track probably sounds better if you’re high.
To we English California is still
Alice through the looking glass
it’s not good to be lonely, alone, and sick
I was hoping to feel better today, not suffering so much from the symptoms of low blood pressure, and whatever the underlying cause is. Actually I do feel better, but that’s just comparing one level of distress with another. I still have no energy, I’m still pretty much confused, and I still want to throw up. We have a word; Manky, and that’s how I’m feeling this morning.
Hopefully I will get to see my own doctor today.
I’ll get through this.
The pictures are a visual expression of my mood.
It’s 6 months since I had a face-to-face conversation with anyone.
pretty much what lockdown for almost a year feels lke
I have nothing to offer but my blood
A little while ago my blood pressure was so high that the old red stuff was fizzing like champagne. Now, my blood pressure is so low that the little red corpuscles are barely tramping around my cardio-vascular system. Low blood pressure is called hypotension, and for the last few days I’ve been suffering from that.
The symptoms of low blood pressure include;
- Feeling dizzy and lightheaded
- Feeling nauseous, vomiting
- Blurred vision
- Lethargy, lack of energy, weakness
- Confusion, lack of concentration.
- Fainting, loss of balance
- Chest pain
- Increased thirst
I have all of those in varying degrees of severity.
Obviously I need a doctor. That isn’t going to happen today.
For now the only thing I know how to do is get more potassium into my body.
Good luck that I have bananas in the fruit bowl.
high in potassium
the dawn crept in, silently, coldly
purple and grey
like the cloak of the world
don’t stop ’til you get enough
I’ve been suffering with a terrible cold, or maybe the flu. Totally out of it for a week. Today I wanted some music that would cheer me up
I like this song and this video.
I hope that you like it too.
I’m sorry that I’ve bee out of it.
But I’ve been very unwell.
hello guys and gals
Back when I was a kid there was a TV show called Top of the Pops. You were nobody if you weren’t on there. Noted pedophiles who were on TOTP include Jimmy Savile and Rolf Haris. Liked one, didn’t like the other.
So from that era. Or a bit later.
I owned a mini.
I dated a girl who wore a mini and platforms.
she was older, and married.
1275 A series
I am not certain that real men are;
supposed to read Cosmopolitan
This video is so camp, and the song was such a dance favourite back when I used to go dancing. Like being able to play billiards, being able to follow along to this dance is the sign of a misspent youth.
Just because one likes the Village People doesn’t mean that you’re metrosexual.
But, FFS never tell anyone that you’re metrosexual.
She would fit into a gay band
some women do wrong just because of the buzz
This Beth Hart song reminds me of a couple of women I used to know very well indeed. They would steal, gamble, drink, and be amorous just for the buzz it gave them. For all I know they still do. There was no harm in any of it.
Women like that are fun.
But you will probably get burned.
at least it’s only wine
this time anyway
gin is worse