many of the casualties from the coronavirus will be from preventable chronic stress
the torment of chronic stress can kill you
It’s very difficult for me to write this. I’m confused, fatigued, and fearful. Who would know that 475 days of enforced isolation could do this to an otherwise healthy person?
For more than a year I’ve been prevented from seeing my friends, going anywhere, or enjoying myself in a normal human manner. For more than a year I’ve angry, anxious, and distressed, and for most of the time I wouldn’t admit that to myself or to another person.
Although I knew I wasn’t ‘right’ nor ‘healthy’, I didn’t know just how bad it was until I booked a (perfectly permissible), short break in the Mediterranean sunshine of Gibraltar. Just booking the trip filled me with apprehension, but then it got worse. I had a severe panic attack; insomnia, nausea, confusion, sweating, headaches, and memory loss.
All of those and more physical symptoms can be attributed to chronic low-level stress and anxiety. What I had done in merely booking a short trip to get me out of this place was to allow my mind to write a cheque my body wouldn’t cash.
I need help to recover, and I know that with some support I can get over this whole coronavirus insanity.
Of course, if I tell our National Health Service any of this I will be instructed to go into strict self-isolation for 10 days.
you are damned in you do
and damned if you don’t