let nature decide on your sex-drive

not doctors and drugs

she should make my temperature rise

In the past when I heard of people who stopped taking their medication for schizophrenia, bi-polar disorder, depression, or some other mental issue….. because the drugs made them feel like they; ‘weren’t  themselves anymore’ ~ well I used to think they were being stupid.

For the past few days I’ve been taking a drug called Amlodipine to help lower what was my catastrophically high blood pressure, and it worked dramatically quickly ~ which is good.  There have been some immediate side-effects ~ which is not so good.  I’ve been drowsy, a bit confused and clumsy, my memory is crap. and I’ve got a constant headache.  There’s another side effect; no interest whatsoever in sex, total lack of sex-drive, zero libido, and no chance at all of having an erection.  I checked, one of the side effects of Amlodipine is to dramatically reduce the production of the male sex-hormone testosterone.

It feels like a very important part of my personality has been removed ~ I don’t feel like myself anymore.  I’m not me.  And, not only do I feel weird, I don’t like it one little bit.

You might wonder how I know my sex-drive and lustful desires have disappeared, given that I’ve been in lockdown for months, and not had a date in all that time.  The strange thing is I knew, and I know that my masculinity has disappeared along with the testosterone which used to flood my body.  I’m not interested in women in any sexual way whatsoever, and strong sexual feelings have been with me since adolescence.  Some other aspects of maleness have also gone; like I’ve lost my sense of direction ~ I don’t automatically know where North is anymore.  Spacial awareness is out of the window, single-mindedness and black and white thinking has gone, and I’m finding it difficult to focus on one task at a time.  I’m depressed, tired all the time, and irritable.  Even my voice is changing.

Who knew that testosterone does much more to the male body than creating and increasing sexual desire and performance?  (I’ve even checked this out by watching some internet porn, and nothing, zip, nada.)

Some women say that men are merely life-support systems for their penis.  And that the way to a man’s heart isn’t food, it’s casual sex.  All I know is that it’s horrible when a man’s masculinity vanishes.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

a great body, fabulous ass, fantastic pose

what effect is that having?

‘nice picture…..’

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