I wish I’d been born with no feelings at all.
wine was the least of what I was drinking
Last year I discovered some unpleasant things about myself, and the way my interpersonal relationships worked ~ or rather didn’t work. All my relationships were dysfunctional, painful, and ruinous. Mostly this was my fault because I could have just walked away from anyone at any time.
I didn’t, instead I let myself go downhill into depression, paranoia, and booze.
Over the last year, and over the Christmas Holidays I faded out.
Well, it’s time I faded back in again.
I don’t know what kind of life I’m going to have, and I’m afraid to find out.
I’ll keep you posted.
I need to work on fading back in