Recovery and Addiction

I understood myself only after I destroyed myself


Psychiatrists tell us that there are 10 different types of personality disorder, and that suffers do not necessarily cleanly fit into just one category.  They also tell us that there is a remarkable overlap between those diagnosed with a personality disorder and those who also display one or more addictive behaviours.

I suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder, (BPD), and around 80% of those diagnosed with BPD also have substance abuse disorders; the most common being alcoholism, followed by addiction to cocaine, opiates, prescription drugs, and marijuana.  Suffers from BPD are also likely to have other addictions such as being dangerously promiscuous and / or have gambling issues.  In my case I spent several years as a near-alcoholic.

Any addictive behaviour, particularly booze or drugs, by those suffering from a personality disorder just makes everything much, much worse.  Lives become more difficult, they become totally unresponsive to treatment, they become violent, and will threaten, attempt, or actually commit suicide.  Around 10% of those diagnosed with BPD commit suicide, which is 1,000 times more than in the general population.

Therefore, in order to recover from Borderline Personality Disorder, (or any other personality disorder), the first prerequisite is to cease and desist from any addictive behaviours.  In my case this means just don’t drink, stay sober, never touch booze.  This never, ever means that someone in recovery can have one or two drinks, or smoke the occasional joint, or go to Vegas once in a while.  Stopping means just that, stopping completely, forever, just one day at a time.

Sadly, the success rate for those attempting to recover from alcoholism, substance abuse, or any other addiction, is very low.  More than half of all those who want to stop drinking will relapse within 3 months, more than half will die from booze, the side-effects of booze, accidents, or suicide.  (Some say that 100% of those who don’t stop drinking or using will die from their addiction, its side-effects, or suicide.  From personal experience I agree with that.)

There are a few rules to follow to stop drinking, using, or other addiction;

  • stop being friends with people who you used to drink with, use with, have sex with, gamble with
  • stay away from bars and other places where you used to drink or use, or whatever
  • never, ever take the first drink, joint, pill, or whatever your addiction of choice
  • do not get lonely, angry, hungry, or tired
  • change your routines completely
  • live one day at a time

Some say that the survival instinct is overwhelmed by the addiction.  And that once an addict always an addict.  All I know is that if I drink I will suffer very bad things


jack collier

recovery means staying out of bars

13 responses

  1. This was so informative, Jack ❤ I'd be interested to know on a more personal note how you keep yourself away from triggers or past temptations. 🙂 ❤ Are there things you incorporate into your life now that uplift you and support your goals? xx

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    1. I don’t go into pubs or bars.
      I avoid the booze aisle in stores.
      I have left behind the ‘friends’ I used to drink with.
      I changed my life, left banking, got divorced, and came to live here.
      For about 3 years I became a recluse and hardly ever left the garret
      I don’t date, (altough I’d love to ‘date’ you on here).
      I try not to get hungry, lonely, angry, or tired.
      I write which helps me to cleanse myself and understand.
      I keep myself and my place clean, I try to look as good as I can.
      I meditate, listen to music in the dark, and take long meditative walks.
      I listen to helpful things on YouTube.
      And I am making some new, interesting, and supportive friends here. ❤
      Penny Berry, you are free to ask me anything you like and I promise to answer truthfully and openly. ❤ ❤ ❤

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      1. Wow! I’m smiling from ear to ear over here, Jack. Thank you for being so open and forthcoming. I feel humbled, loved, and touched and I LOVE getting to know you! I completely welcome you into my life, and am happy to answer any questions you have too. We should totally swap emails and keep this conversation going because it’s fascinating!! ❤ What do you think? xx

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        1. I feel excited, loved, and humbled by you. Please email me

          I would like you to get to know me, and I would love to get to know you.
          XXX ❤❤❤

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  2. Reading this, it strikes me that whilst very different in nature (personality disorder vs mood disorder) that there are some similarities in the manifestations of bipolar disorder and BPD. It wouldn’t shock me to pieces to learn that you’d been misdiagnosed in the past. So glad you know what you’re dealing with now, and what a difference that makes. 💕

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    1. The 2 key differences between bipolar and the bpd I have are;
      I have suicidal tendencies.
      Medication is worse than uselessfor me.
      Although having been misdiagnosed I spent several hilarious months taking huge doses of Prozac. Take enough of that stuff and you get as high as a kite.
      The big and beneficial difference is that I now know why I go extremes in the ways I do.
      Jan, I am honoured to have you as a friend 💖💖💖

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      1. The honour is mine 💕😊

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    1. Thank you Sweetheart ❤


  3. Continue in strength to desist all bad addictive behaviors. For you to recognise it, is already a battle won. Take care and hugs to Marmaduke

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    1. Thank you, your kindness means a lot to me.
      Hugs from Marmy ❤ ❤ ❤

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      1. 💕💕💕🤗🤗🤗

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