Relationships, Travel, and Self-Development

self-affinity, self-awareness, self-confidence, and self-development

Life is better for me today, and looking back I can see why things didn’t always happen the way I hoped and expected them to go.  Partly it was because my expectations were unrealistic and depended upon others acting the way I would wish them to, (and that almost never works out).  Partly it was because I suffered from a lot of negative character traits such as judgementalism, jealousy, and impatience.

By accepting what were my downfalls in the past I can work on developing better ways of living, and also deciding consciously what I don’t want to be, what I don’t want to do, and where I don’t want to go, (in a literal and figurative sense).  This is the right time for me to push on through with no regrets and no hesitation.  This is the time for me to re-evaluate some of my life path choices so I can drop everything unsatisfying and toxic, and instead concentrate on that which adds to my success and happiness.  People, places and things that have just ever taken from me, giving little in return, no longer have a place in my life.

I am very aware of what I don’t want in my life, but I think I need something like a bucket list, or a vision board, or maybe a mind map to help me to decide what I do want in my life.

There’s a list of places I want to visit in the next year or so; starting with California, and maybe Arizona in the USA.  In England I would like to see Stonehenge again and some of the other weird places such as Lindisfarne.  I have no desire to spend much time in London, but seeing Amsterdam, Paris, Rome again might be cool ~ after I’ve been back to Florence, Sienna, Pisa, and San Gimignano.  I do so love Tuscany.

The Mediterranean might well be the most favoured region on the planet; the Greek Islands are fabulous, as are Crete, Cyprus, and Malta ~ maybe I’ll take a cruise.  And of course it’s been a long time since I’ve been to the West Indies ~ and the islands are a great winter destination.  Never, ever go to the Caribbean during June, July, August, or September ~ unless you really like hurricanes.

I have no issues with finances nor responsibilities back here in the garret, (apart from Marmaduke), but what hold me back a little is the ultimate joylessness of travelling alone.  Maybe the first thing I need on life is a new friend and travelling companion, or to change my relationship with an old friend for the better.

Some say that no matter where you go you always take yourself with you.  And that freedom is not just a long holiday.  All I know is that the world is my lobster.


jack collier

Marmaduke likes travelling with me


9 responses

  1. Jack it might be a good thing that you are not dating. Perhaps you need to learn the company of you. Maybe sit back and observe other people and see if you could handle what reality is without your vices. If you watch Seinfeld you could do what George did which was do the opposite of everything he has ever done. See how that works. Embrace your alone time

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    1. Maybe, and maybe not ❤

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  2. I’m rather shy and traveled alone several times and quite liked it! It wasn’t joyless at all. In a way, it helped me come out of my shell (no mermaid pun intended) 🙂

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    1. For me, travelling alone can be enjoyable, but travelling with someone I like is better. ❤
      Your mermaid pun is funny. 😉

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  3. Marmaduke makes a fine companion! 🙂 Yes, life is better with conncetions and partners, whether romantic or friends. I have difficulty making new friends because of my mental illness. It takes time for people to come to know and love me enough to accept that I can’t always show up and it’s NOT personal. These things are part of having a mental illness that most just don’t understand.

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    1. I understand just how hard it is to live a normal life when you have a serious mental health problem, most people don’t. ❤
      By some miracle I am ‘remarkably well’ or so my doctor said today.
      You have a new friend in me sweetheart ❤❤❤😎

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      1. You, too!!! 🙂 I have a “new” doctor… about 2 years now. I only see her when things are hard. lol So, she doesn’t really know me when I’m stable, which is most of the time now that I’m medicated again. I got pregenant unexpectedly a few years ago and went off meds for the obvious reasons.
        Unfortunately, once I did, I lost 100% of my awareness for needing them. My life was truly insane for quite some time. Took about a year to get my life back under control after that. She knows that Jodie. LOL Will the real Jodie please stand up? (Slim Shady….)

        California is quite lovely! Lived here all my life. I’m up in the wine country. 😉 One of my favorite spots is Armstrong Woods in Guerneville. Google it. They’re phenominal. ♥

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        1. Is it Armstrong Redwoods State Natural Reserve?
          It looks incredibly spiritual.
          I haven’t been to Northern California, but a visit to Armstrong Woods is now on my list.
          If my doctor had seen me a month ago he wouldn’t have been so upbeat about my state of health. I have enjoyed a miraculous change in just a few weeks.
          I am not on any meds, just self-directed therapy.
          Thank you Sweetheart ❤❤❤

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          1. You’re welcome! And yes, that’s it. ♥ Spiritual indeed.

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