Lucky Jack?

Only a fool will let miserable situations run on from year to year.

Despite everything, there have been some dark clouds over my head.  Ergo yesterday, on a whim, I took a train ride to the nearest big city to do a little shopping.

More than just going shopping yesterday, and buying whatever took my fancy; in a few weeks I’m going to New Mexico to attend a ‘new-age’ retreat, and I’ve just booked a week on the Algarve for over the Christmas Holidays.  That Christmas trip will be my 6th vacation this year.  How fortunate is that?

Oft times I tell you of my woes, bemoaning my luck, revealing the darker parts of my psyche ~ and yet there are so many others who are far worse off than I.  Even in this moderately wealthy country, this green and pleasant land that is England, much misery abounds.  There are those who struggle to find the next penny, let alone have the cash and freedom to just take off whenever they feel like it.

And, in America, that Land Of The Free there are more people living on the streets than a supposedly civilised country should countenance.  Some say those people are just down on their luck ~ some bad luck America.

Without revealing too many confidences; yesterday I had to give a friend enough money for petrol, (gas), to allow her to visit her son who had been rushed into hospital.  Even some of my friends aren’t as fortunate as I.

Maybe I want so much that I aim too high, and just going off shopping, or taking a vacation, is ultimately less than satisfying for me.  Those foreign trips may put me under a different sky, but I still often feel alone and unsatisfied.  Perhaps this is because I have unreasonable expectations, or that I am acting with selfishness, or it may be that I am not living a mindful life anyway.

One hope is that my upcoming New Mexico trip will give me some new psychological tools to put in my bag.  Another is that as I become more self-aware and more self-confident, I will be able to look at my life, my relationships, my wants, needs, desires, and dreams in a more honest and mindful way.

Some say it’s not what you keep that matters, it’s what you are prepared to leave and lose.  And, that if you have doubts about people it’s time to walk away.  All I know is that the harder I work at things, the luckier I get.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

 

Living on the streets is not much fun

12 responses

  1. Just a thought: given what crypto said above, and your agreement, something which I found very helpful about finding what was inside – was zen. At a difficult time in my life – I saw a therapist, who was good, but the thing that helped viscerally to see the ‘big picture’ was being part of a local zen center and attending practice (meditation) and hearing talks from the very good zen master there. If there is a zen center in your area – and there probably is – check it out, it doesn’t cost anything – and you may find it beneficial. It can help one look at things/life from a different perspective. It’s not weird or ‘out there’ – just another avenue.

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    1. A look at the local websites and associated activities reveals an absolute dearth of Zen around here. But, there is a lot of stuff on-line for me to explore.
      What I don’t need to do is look at why I hurt and the things that sometimes tear me apart ~ I know exactly and in detail the things that have and still cause me horrible pain, and why that happened and still happens.
      What I need to do is to find ways to accept and heal those deep hurts.
      Thanks for everything Sweetheart. ❤ ❤ ❤

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  2. I tell myself there are always people more fortunate or less then me. We are all I the middle really. I look forward to hearing about the retreat

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    1. Abundance, good fortune, and luck would all seem to be both relative and subjective ~ but it’s how we feel right now that seems to matter most to each of us.
      Thanks ever so for your thought provoking comment. ❤ ❤ ❤

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  3. Aren’t you rushing around to globe in order to find something that’s buried into yourself?

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  4. Well said! I think sometimes people look at me and see how much I travel with work and think that means I should be really happy, but sometimes you can have so much and still be unhappy. I could do with a retreat like that, I hope you get some clarity on yours.

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    1. I am really looking forward to this retreat.
      Don’t know what I’ll get out of it yet, but I will post full reports on this blog.
      some say that happiness is a state of mind ~ sending you happy thoughts.
      ❤ ❤ ❤

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      1. Thank you! I look forward to reading all about it 😊❤️❤️

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    1. Thank you Sweetheart.
      Kind thoughts to you.
      ❤ ❤ ❤

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