My worries are a thin stream of fear trickling through my mind. If encouraged it cuts a channel into which all other thoughts are drained.
I have been very distressed over the past few days. I have not been behaving well. I have upset my friends and done some reprehensible things.
How I can ever recover from this slough of despond? How can I make it up to my friends?
I have worries just like everyone else. However I don’t have to ruin my life. or dwell on my worries or make them any bigger than they are.
I should ‘pull myself together’ and not try to solve my problems with booze.
My problems and worries are caused by Borderline Personality Disorder, which I suffered from most of my life. BPD is a horrible mental illness, and it’s now really getting me down. I need to find a way of recovering from this illness.
Maybe I should get outside and look at the sky.