Have you ever had one of those terrible days when nothing wanted to work?
Has your whole body ever felt as though you were too heavy to move, and every bone and muscle was not just uncomfortable, but actually hurting?
Have you ever felt as though you had a mind full of dank fog, and every thought was an effort that didn’t really want to go anywhere?
Well that was me yesterday. Feeling bad, thinking bad thoughts, lost, alone, lonely, tired, and hurting.
Over recent weeks I have been feeling incredibly fit, well, healthy, alert, and sharp ~ all day, everyday. And, I’ve slept well, been filled with energy when I’m awake, and been able to rest comfortably when I wanted to relax. So, to suddenly feel yuck was a bit of a shock.
You know what? Not so long ago, I used to feel yuck all the damn time.
Feeling terrible in body, mind, and spirit was the way my life was, I just didn’t always know it at the time. Terrible can become normal if that’s what you become used to. I ill-treated my body, mind, and spirit and a terrible life was what I got in return.
If you have done terrible things, you must endure terrible things; for thus the sacred light of injustice shines bright. ~ Sophocles.
These days I feel good all the time, and that’s the new normal for me.
Perhaps it’s done me a favour to experience and remember just how manky my ‘normal’ used to be. I even know what brought on the whole feeling manky thing all of a sudden ~ allowing myself to be adversely affected by some hurtful things a friend said to me at the weekend. And that’s stupid, because my feelings are my feelings, and I shouldn’t let someone else control how I feel. Perfection is not always easy when you’ve had a lifetime suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder.
Tomorrow, I’m back on my programme of a healthy diet, fresh air, exercise, working to stretch my intellect, and using meditation to connect with my spiritual side. When I feel damn good, my whole life is damn good. Back when I used to feel yuck most of the time, my whole life was yuck.
Do yourself a favour, start a yourself on a proper programme to be fitter and healthier in body, mind, and spirit.
Orandum est ut sit mens sana in corpore sano ~ from the Latin ~ You should pray for a healthy mind in a healthy body.
These opinions are mine and mine alone