Feeling Bloody Terrible

Have you ever had one of those terrible days when nothing wanted to work?

Has your whole body ever felt as though you were too heavy to move, and every bone and muscle was not just uncomfortable, but actually hurting?

Have you ever felt as though you had a mind full of dank fog, and every thought was an effort that didn’t really want to go anywhere?

regretWell that was me yesterday.  Feeling bad, thinking bad thoughts, lost, alone, lonely, tired, and hurting.

Over recent weeks I have been feeling incredibly fit, well, healthy, alert, and sharp ~ all day, everyday.  And, I’ve slept well, been filled with energy when I’m awake, and been able to rest comfortably when I wanted to relax.  So, to suddenly feel yuck was a bit of a shock.

You know what?  Not so long ago, I used to feel yuck all the  damn time.

Feeling terrible in body, mind, and spirit was the way my life was, I just didn’t always know it at the time.  Terrible can become normal if that’s what you become used to.  I ill-treated my body, mind, and spirit and a terrible life was what I got in return.

If you have done terrible things, you must endure terrible things; for thus the sacred light of injustice shines bright.  ~  Sophocles.

These days I feel good all the time, and that’s the new normal for me.

Perhaps it’s done me a favour to experience and remember just how manky my ‘normal’ used to be.  I even know what brought on the whole feeling manky thing all of a sudden ~ allowing myself to be adversely affected by some hurtful things a friend said to me at the weekend.  And that’s stupid, because my feelings are my feelings, and I shouldn’t let someone else control how I feel.  Perfection is not always easy when you’ve had a lifetime suffering from Borderline Personality Disorder.

Tomorrow, I’m back on my programme of a healthy diet, fresh air, exercise, working to stretch my intellect, and using meditation to connect with my spiritual side.  When I feel damn good, my whole life is damn good.  Back when I used to feel yuck most of the time, my whole life was yuck.

Do yourself a favour, start a yourself on a proper programme to be fitter and healthier in body, mind, and spirit.

Orandum est ut sit mens sana in corpore sano ~  from the Latin ~ You should pray for a healthy mind in a healthy body.


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16 responses

  1. I’ve definitely felt that way. Recently in fact. You’re very right in that if we get on a good program/routine it truly helps so much and the mind set follows and we start climbing out of that dark space. Thanks Jack!

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    1. Good for you Souldiergirl. It’s a shock to the system when one takes a step back from our climb to the broad sunlit uplands, but at least it was only one day of bad stuff for me. ❤ ❤ ❤

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      1. Yes I know what you mean. It’s gets worse and worse the longer we go.

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  2. A @ moylomenterprises | Reply

    The rain must come so we may better appreciate the sunshine.
    Best wishes on your program of healthy living. Here’s hoping today is a good day🌷

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    1. I didn’t appreciate how good things were becoming for me, until suddenly everything turned a little yuck. Thank you. ❤ ❤ ❤

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      1. A @ moylomenterprises | Reply

        It’s great when a bit of reality helps us shift perspective. Be well! ☺

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  3. I’m very happy to hear it was only one day of ‘yuck’ … it says a lot that a) you realized what brought it on, and b) you pulled yourself out of it! Proud of you, my friend! ❤

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  4. Its okay, I guess everyone faces the same phase once in a while – I do too!
    I’m glad you didn’t succumb to it and came out in a happy state of mind! 🙂

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    1. I guess I was lucky, because today I’ve been feeling great.

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  5. Back to my ‘normal’ bright-eyed’ self today. Thanks for your kind words. ❤


  6. Feeling better 🙂
    Happier healthier
    wiser not miser
    are you 🙂
    open your heart
    just as you opened eyes
    and see how wonderful
    sky looks..when clear blue

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  7. Wow Jack, you needed a Mental health day! Glad you feel better.

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