Murder of Crows

And the crow called the raven black

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And he was far too certain of himself.

Some say that only a geordie boy is a real man.  And that whoever wants to relax in the south is a wanker.  All I know is that it gets cold in the sunshine here.

jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

 

where the crow commands the captive must obey

 

Anonymous Amour

Sex is all about who has the power to demand love.

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eyes heels stockings legs resume

hair dress shoes lips manicure

taste perfume sexual allure

firmly mysterious amour

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

 

he gives me away

 

 

28 Days

It is not the length of life that matters, but the depth of life.

What would you do if you knew that you only had one month to live?  Or just one day ~ until noon?

Some say that they would finally say goodbye to all of their friends and family, put their affairs in order, and quietly sit down and wait for the grim reaper to call.

Others say they would tick off as many things on their bucket list as they could.  They forget that wherever they go they take their whole life along with them.

And then there are those facing certain death who retreat into denial with religion and a bottle of booze.

Not that I believe that I am anywhere near the end of days, but I’ve had to seriously accept that my time on this planet is numbered, and the count-down started the day I was conceived.

I get the feeling that I don’t belong here, that everything good is so hard to hear, they’re just not listening.  I’ve walked so far along the warrior’s path that sometimes I aim too high.  I get the feeling that I am among the lucky few who has been able to accept that winter comes eventually.

So, with the assumption that I have 28 Days to Live, how does that change what’s left of my life?

  • Money is worthless.
  • Possessions are useless.
  • Unhappiness is pointless.
  • Stale relationships don’t matter at all.
  • Negativity and judgementalism are a waste of time.

Only people, places, and things I do that bring me immediate happiness, contentment, and serenity deserve any place in what’s left of my life.  Making other people happy may give me vicarious satisfaction, but that matters not one jot.  Nothing lasts forever, people change their minds, and today is just another day.  Living life to the fullest, seizing the day, means that I will only be around those who can fill my life with a kaleidoscope of colour.

My castle is in the clouds, and if others don’t want to go there then they can fuck off and have a nice day without me.

Some men say that she holds their heart in their hands.  And, that if they can’t have her their life can never be complete.  All I know is that it will be all right without her, I will be as strong as I can be.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

 

a man with 28 days to live should perhaps find a woman who has fabulous legs

 

Self-censorship and Lies

Self-censorship is a lie to yourself;
one should never be afraid to say what you think. 

I am a firm believer in not allowing the approval, or disapproval, of others to influence what one believes, thinks, says, writes, or does.  I am also a liar, because today, yesterday, and for a few days / weeks / months before that I have not been true to my own beliefs.

My lies to you all are lies of omission, in that I am not prepared to tell you the whole truth about some things, and I am not prepared to tell you anything at all about some other things, and there are some things I will just completely deny.  It seems that everyone has dark secrets, and everyone lies without thought.

As this is by way of a confessional I will tell you why I’m making this admission.

Today I was going to publish one of a few completed posts that I have just decided I shall never publish.  These included;

  • Sex, Lust, and Whores.  Most women sell sex; most of them just don’t take money from everyone who wants them.
  • Masturbation and Fetishes.  Only boys masturbate, or so the myth goes, because a woman touching herself is immoral.
  • Love Wars.  Love and war, it seems, work by exactly the same rules.
  • Goddess of Sexual Love.  Sexual love is powerful, it can bring women to their knees.
  • Casual Sex and Immorality.  In an imperfect world you could fuck anyone and everyone without thinking about the consequences.

All the above posts I’ve irrevocably put into my trash were of a highly sexual nature, impinging upon the real truths of most interpersonal relationships.

The face is the mirror of the mind, and the eyes without speaking confess the secrets of the heart.  ~  St. Jerome.

Some say that evaluation of the truth is not an absolute, but a matter of piecing together bits of information to form a picture.  And that most people’s idea of the truth is based on their preconceived ideas and prejudices.  All know is that, sometimes, the real truth is best left unsaid.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

the most common fetishes are depicted here

smoking, heels, stockings, submission, mystery, mastery

 

Postcards from Purgatory

She was Purgatory incarnate, promising Heaven and delivering Hell

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every time I go back there is the same as the one before

every journey has me wondering why I desire her more

her hot breath of adoration a mere promise of scorn

Goddess of love incarnate, and yet she is a whore

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

 

beautiful, mysterious, wild and free

gods and men have enjoyed thee

 

Inner Distress and Compulsions

Our anxiety does not come from thinking about the future,
but from wanting to control it.  ~  Khalil Gibran

To a greater or lesser degree we all suffer from what the medical profession call endogenous anxiety / depression ~ which is a complicated way of saying that your therapist / psychiatrist / doctor has no idea why you sometimes feel bad and sometimes go off the rails.

I firmly believe that the underlying cause of all the anxiety, distress, depressions, compulsions, and weaknesses we sometimes suffer from is the direct result of the programming we received before our conscious minds were developed enough to filter out all the bad crap we were subjected to.  Even before you were born, your subconscious mind, body, and spirit was receiving the shitty, negative programs you still live by today.  Remember, your subconscious mind is running things for about 90% of the time.

After conception, right up to the age of around 7, your mind, body, and spirit were being programmed by everything in your environment ~ especially your parents, siblings, other members of your extended family, teachers, TV, & etc. & etc.  And you know what?  It’s all the bad, negative, and defective stuff that really sticks.

The likelihood is that your subconscious mind is full of stuff like; ‘the world is a dangerous place’ ‘people are not to be trusted’ ‘you have to struggle to survive’ and ‘you have to fight to get what you need, want, and desire’.

I also firmly believe that our inner distress is why we may struggle with addictions and compulsions like; booze, casual sex, a bad diet, drugs, health, lack of exercise, money problems, smoking, impulsive behaviours, and all those defects of character we might have, or that others say we have.

How can we fix this?  Not through willpower, self-discipline, nor self-control.  The only way I know to escape the inner distress, anxiety, depression, compulsions, and addictions we honestly accept and admit we suffer from is through a long time, (maybe years), of acting as if these problems and bad feelings did not exist.  Or as they say in 12 Step Groups fake it to make it.

Some say that only the weak do things that they really shouldn’t.  And that anyone can cure their own addictions and defects of character if they just use a little willpower and self-control.  All I know is that every worthwhile person I have ever met has suffered from profound inner distress

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

 

your subconscious mind can become your own prison

Monochrome Monday ~ Carnal Goddess Incarnate

God may be in the details but the goddess is in the questions.
Once we begin to ask them, there is no turning back.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

who comprehends her sexuality

call her Aphrodite, Hathor, or Venus

she is carnal love incarnate

 

Scenes on Sunday ~ Northern Skies

When light fills a Northern Sky, the immensity is scarcely conceivable. 

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

Ghostly sunlight can also be cold.

Sunday Prayer

Goddess, if there is a Goddess, please listen to my prayer.

Please help me to cleanse my body, mind, emotions, and spirit of the poisons that have infected and tortured me.

Please help me to cleanse myself of all that is no longer necessary in my life.  Help me towards a new beginning.

Help me to make good decisions, especially concerning what should happen when I am not around.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

In the wilderness, one’s spirit grows closer to your Goddess

Songs on Saturday ~ Bruno Mars

A strong woman builds her own world, for she is amazing.

This is a cool song from a cool-looking young guy.

The lyrics remind me of a woman I know.

Please listen responsibly.

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jack collier

jackcollier7@talktalk.net

 

a very amazingly undressed woman

they’re coloured mirrors

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